Ramblings

Play online comes with its risks and I know this. But weeks of getting to know someone, the small early hour conversations. Smiling at my phone like a moron, working to build something.
And I wake up to you gone.
No good bye, no explanation. Just thrown away. 
I am a full person. 
How am i meant to start trying to build anything? I spent time explaining to you my hesitations. now that my trust has been evaporated. 
heartbroken.