Ramblings

A time spent pondering one’s own personality faults is.. I suppose… time spent well. Looking deep into the mirror is something I always find beneficial. Find the abrasions and stitch them up again with help from others and their knowledge. 
I have realised that despite my aversion to people, I do need them. Especially those who take the time to see others for what they are. Truly. 
Over the last few days I have been offered quite a few olive branches. Had my wobbles noticed by those around me. Reassuring me that I am not standing alone in my journey. Some from those very close to me. Others totally unexpected. Both meant as much as the next. 
I guess my point here is, even when I felt totally lost- I was not. Land was nearby. Safety of understanding was an arm stretch away. And I have people watching me. Steadying me. 
I think it’s time to make a decision now. Invest or give up. I cannot keep walking this middle line. Allowing the hurt and confusion to keep me trying to balance. 
Two feet on solid ground… or jump into the water. Decision time.