All that Jaz

Last night I found out that someone I held dear, had passed.  I first met him last year through his Domme.  (one of my friends)  We connected immediately, we had so much in common.  It was so nice having another male sub to talk to.  He ended up staying at my house for a week last summer.  We spent a lot of nights sitting on the porch (front and back) talking about everything.  He was my baby brother, and I feel horrible because the last few months I didn't talk to him like I used to.  This winter has been hard on me, and I "hibernated" and was more antisocial than normal.  I thought about him the other night, as I had to grab something out of the garage and saw the paddle I was making for him (still unfinished). I thought about him and got excited, because he was supposed to be moving here soon...and yet I didn't send him a message, or let him know I was thinking of him....and now I never can.