After my bad encounter with BDSM, I decided that wasn't normal and I wouldn't give up in finding something real. I joined a social community which at the time was called airg.
I met a lot of like minded individuals there, each with their own unique and interesting personalities. I became friends with other subs, dommes, doms, Masters, Mistresses, Freewomen or whatever they called themselves. There were people from both Gorean and BDSM backgrounds there.
I had a few online only experiences at first, but my sharp wit and playful tongue was no match for online doms and they soon gave up on me. Also, I was rather the amateur at the time.
Finally, I had my first real life experience with a Gorean Master. It was an on and off again type of interaction, and still I felt myself crave how strict and demanding he was, and laughed every time I thought about his reaction to me breaking a rule.
We didn't live together, and he travelled quite often, at the beginning. He also saw other kajira, and that was where I learned I had a very bad jealousy streak. He had the most extensive set of rules I have ever had in my time in the lifestyle, many of which I broke and some of which I followed. It really just depended on my mood that day. Sometimes I was just too tired to be of any trouble and I would be on my best behavior.
One time another Master taunted him by saying we were flirting, but in fact we were not. But this made him very angry and he demanded my logins into everything. I gave him those logins and then created new ones as I was not to be online without permission. Haha. Those were fun days.
More on that story another time...
