I’m on a meaningful journey of self-discovery and understanding in the context of BDSM and my own desires.
So to bring up an important distinction that I grapple with, the difference between needing to be submissive and the deeper need to be owned or in a Total Power Exchange (TPE) relationship.
Each aspect can fulfill different emotional and psychological needs, and understanding my own motivations can help clarify.
Desire for Submission vs. Desire for Ownership.
Wanting to be submissive often relates to the enjoyment of yielding control, serving, and finding pleasure in that dynamic.
In contrast, the desire to be owned encompasses a deeper craving for connection, identity, and total immersion in that. It can involve a sense of belonging and purpose that goes beyond the act of submission itself.
Im recognizing that I need to be owned and to serve is a profound realization. I think it indicates a desire for a more encompassing relationship, where my identity and value are intertwined with being His property.
My journey of self-discovery will likely influence how I perceive and engage with these over time. As I learn more about myself, my experiences, and my desires, my mindset may shift, leading me to a deeper understanding of what fulfillment looks like for me.
I believe this evolution is natural and can be a rich part of my journey.
It’s important to acknowledge that wanting to serve and be owned can coexist with feelings of confusion or frustration, especially when circumstances change. And is something I am dealing with at the moment.
I feel understanding these distinctions will help me articulate my needs and desires more clearly.
I think it’s essential to explore what "gift my all" means to me, whether it’s emotional vulnerability, physical submission, or something else entirely.
Ultimately, my journey is unique, and it’s about finding what resonates with me and how I can communicate and negotiate those desires within my relationshp.
As I continue on my journey, I have to remember that it's okay to take my time, learn from every experience, and foster connections that helps my understanding of myself.
I am enjoying the process of discovering what it means to be the best version of myself.