Why is it that I am more excited in the wait? When I am standing at attention or in Nadu anxiously awaiting for my Master to enter the room. My heart rate increases and I can feel the moisture between my legs. His touch sending shivers down my spine. Imagining what his plans are for me. And they are always so much more than I expected. His teaching though stern at times have helped me to focus and become the submissive I never knew I was capable of. I love submitting to his will and my heart warms when I know I have pleased him. It is the journey, the submission, and the sense of being owned and controlled that excites me and gives me peace.
But the wait has taught me so much more. It has taught me patience, and endurance. Allowing me to control my orgasm and not my orgasm to control me. I never understood that. Until I was told to edge. A foreign concept for me. The frustration, the ache, the cursing under my breath. 🤭 The guilt when I mess up and get too close and lose control. And having to start all over again . But I think I am beginning to understand, when after edging for days and you finally see your Master and the orgasm he allows you to finally have is so intense that you just want to cry for joy. And the gratitude for allowing you to feel that way. Then and only then do you find contentment in the wait.
1 month ago. Monday, December 15, 2025 at 9:01 PM