I'm just saying

Like, seriously? It really bothers me. When I go to someones page, ( just updated mines. So, I'm guilty of it to now ) and the first thing you see or just read in between them telling you about themselves. Is all about how they have come across so many assholes, jerks, fake ass wanna-be and ( my favorite ) stupid dickheads. Like, seriously? Why you have to talk to someone like that? If you saw that same person in peraon you'ld be mad polite having them think your sweet, your approach matched your good looks and they would maybe not shut you down as hard. But, because we're online and you have the opportunity to jump past that part. You feel bold. That's just stupid. You look stupid. Sound stupid. You come off as if you never even hit puberty and you have no controle of your dick. Pick up a book. Learn how to speak to people with respect and try again in 6 months like a job application lmao.

To all the mother's, aunt's and sister's. Happy mother's day to you. Aunt's and sister's are mother's to somebody too. Can't leave them out. 

Ok. So, I  know I haven't written anything in a while. So, here's the update.

Gane night was a dud. Nobody showed up and I ended up in a bar not far from my place and enjoyed cinco di mio like everyone else. 

I bought my first rope today and I've also completed both the Burlington and the French bowline knots. I'll try to post pictures once I get to my laptop.

I'm about to head to my first bdsm meeting. It said it's a vanilla meet up with games and it's at a diner too. So, I'm about to pop this cherry and kick some ass in whichever game I decide to play. More on how it went after the 10 o'clock news lol. 

Dear Sring time

Hello spring, we meet once again. I've  always had a huge grudge against you and I'm pretty sure you know why. Every time you come around me. My allergies act up. Prime example is today. I could hardly see out of one eye today and my boss thought I had the pink eye. Which come to think about it now. I should of said yes to get a extra day off with pay. Back to you spring. I can't stand your punk ass. I really do wish you go as far away from me as possible this way I can go back to my normal-self. I also wish you was a real person this way I could kick your ass for the pain my right eye is in.

Sincerely,

      Fuck you. You bitch ass motherfucker

So, i finally joined fetlife. It took me awhile to do it because since I found this website. I've really zoned in on here. Talking to different people, exchanging different views as well as continuously learning from everybody on here. But, there was one thing that I haven't done as of yet. That almost everybody that I've spoken to whether it be in the past or present. That is going to actual bdsm events. To bring it all full circle now. I'm on fetlife, spoke to one person about the site. The same way I did on here and I'll be going to possibly two events soon. Not sure if I want to push it to three just of yet. However, I'm really interested in the flogging beginners event and the rope bondage for beginners event ????. Both seem interesting and fun. I'm leaning towards the rope more though lol. 

After a few more drinks and casual talking with this little petite thing. I learned her name was Elizabeth. I told her mine and I stook my hand out to touch her. Her hand was so soft and little. I thought my hand was going to crush hers. She squeezed my hand lightly. So, I gave her a squeeze back. She smiled and I knew for sure that I had to get her out of here before it's too late. She must of read my mind because she looked at her watch to check the time. I told her that if she didn't live to far from the bar maybe I could walk her home. She smiled at the thought and said *that'll be great. I always have guys trying to follow me home and it's too late for me to be walking alone.* So, I paid both our tabs and we headed for the door. As I held the door open for her. She walked by and I made sure to give her a little extra push. I palmed her ass to show her that I was into her. She gave me the look I was looking for. That don't move your hand from my ass look. I had no plans to move it anyways. We walked and talked some more. After about 4 or 5 blocks. We made it to her place. She thanked me for making sure she made it home safely. I told her it was my pleasure. She opened her arms to hug me. I told her she can hug me after she lets me in. She looked shocked at first and she was going to say something else. But, I stopped her by stepping closer to her and demanding her to open the door. Her eyes said I'm scared. But, her body said please take me. I want to be yours.

I've noticed her here at the local bar for some time now. I've noticed her since the first day we bumped into each other by a drunk patron. She had to be at least 5'1 without the heels. Not saying she's short because I only stand 5'7 myself. But, her eyes and her slight petite frame caught my attention immediately. So, much I tried for the past couple of days to run into her again. Just to get the chance to see her again. I should of known that on payday would be the best time to see her. And sure enough when she walked in. She mad sure to draw everybody's attention. Even the men and women who are here together had to look at her. Short business skirt, low cut blouse, make up still done as if she just started her day. Hair flowing free even though there's no wind blowing outside. Glad the person that was sitting next to me left before she got here. As soon as she sat down, I could smell her perfume and it was so very intoxicating. It took everything in me not to look down her blouse. Fuck it. I'm going to look. I planned to see more of her anyways. I take a quick glance at her. Give her a smile and I tilt my glass to her as I look down her blouse. She smiled back. Lips would look so good on me. After sitting next to her and watching the game. I noticed she was watching the game and blowing guys off left and right. I figured it won't hurt to be blown off just like them. Can't hurt to try my luck. As soon as I turn to talk to her she says *no. I don't need you to buy me a drink* I make a smug look on my face and say *I was going to ask you how you like the game so far?* she changed her body language real quick. She then said *I'm sorry. Just get tired of the same guy asking the same thing.* I laughed and say *true. We do say some dumb things. But, you can't blame us. Not sound like a perv. But, you look better than most women in here.* She looked around and laughed. *Maybe I do look better than them. Ok. You got that one.* I laugh with her and try to get back to talking about the game. I tell her *I'm not a big fan of LeBron James. But, he's very good.* She says *Me either. But, can't nobody stop him. He's just too big. I won't be able to stop him or you from doing whatever you wanted to do to me. Even if i tried.* Me and the bartender gave her and her glass of wine a shocked look. All my brain said was it's time to take our prey home.

I recently found out that making rules is hard as a new dom in this lifestyle lol. Trying to make sure that the rules are easy enough to follow and making sure that the punishment is equal to the rules is also hard. Not saying I'm not enjoying the challenge. Which I  am. But, I am saying that it's going to need some reviewing later on down the line. 

Today was the first day I tried the chat room. As a newbie to the lifestyle. It was awesome. The people in there were funny, friendly and a little kinky too. Which was great. If your new like me. I definitely recommend talking through the chat room. It was fun and we even made fun of a total loser who tried to rain on our fun parade. To those awesome people that was in the chat. I'll be looking forward to chatting it with again and I'll also be sending a add soon too.