Live well and love even better

I don’t Want to anymore

I don’t want to pretend

That everything‘s OK

That I’m not broken

And if I work hard enough, the pain will go away

I don’t want to anymore

Pretend that I love my work when I feel like this old dog, can’t learn the new tricks

Pretend that I’m strong in my relationships But I don’t feel seen in the needs. I crave just get ignored

Pretend I think the world will sort itself out. As I watch, fear turned to hatred and hatred to violence.

I don’t want to anymore.

but I will because for a few fleeting moments, something gave me hope. A little thank you as I held the door for a stranger. My wife stroke my hair and didn’t push me away. and it’s those little things that keep me going, especially when I don’t want to anymore