Hello, it’s been about a week since I found out about my Doms betrayal and I have to say I am doing good. I want to thank all of you that read my “Duped” blog and sent me kind words of encouragement. I knew I wasn’t going to be the only sub this happened to.
My friend has been checking in on me to make sure I am OK and I am. The day after I found out I woke up very refreshed. I went about my morning doing what I wanted to do not what he had requested I do. And you know what I realized, that I must have known, subconsciously, that something wasn’t right for a while and once confronted I felt lighter.
I have been contacted by many Doms in the last week. Some felt right and some didn’t. One manipulated me into posting a photo and then said he wasn’t interested. Kind of shallow but I never really thought he would be right. And as for the photos posting, I guess I really wanted to do that anyway.
I plan to engage much longer and get to know a Dom better before I jump into anything. I also am going to be very clear about what I want and expect, things I didn’t know I should have known before jumping in the first time. But I have learned and grown from this experience. And it could have been a lot worse than just 6 wasted months. He could have tried to take money or hurt me emotionally, two things I would find it much harder to bounce back from, so I feel lucky. And not everything was bad. He did get me started on a track, looking at my health and trying to exercise and eat better so I could lose some weight, he just never followed through on keeping me on track.
But this is all behind me. I am going to concentrate on the new Doms that have been contacting me. A couple have shown promise by expressing that they would be firm and strict with me and help me stay on track. They say they want to teach me and help me learn more about submission. They sound sincere but actions speak louder than words so we’ll see.
Bunny