Warning: Super sappy post to follow. Excuse any typos please. I'll fix them later. The rain makes the touch screen accuracy less than ideal.
Today I am grateful. I'm grateful every day. But today I'm especially grateful. Oryx has accompanied me on my business trip as she does every month when possible. I consider it a sacrifice because she spends her days here alone in the hotel waiting for me to get done. She considers it a vacation. I am grateful that My Love would prefer periods of boredom and unpredictable schedules if her other options didn't include spending time for me.
This is the first time she's accompanied me since we entered this dynamic. She's been teasing me for weeks about her plans for me. She'd planned to tease me while we were out with my colleagues after hours. She likes to challenge me to see how long I can take it before I ask if we can please leave yet. I am really working on patience because I find I really like the build up.
On this trip, however, my schedule has been out of control due to poor planning by the company. Late nights and early mornings. I've not been able to plan a social outing because everyone is mentally exhausted after dealing with the unorganized daily schedule and hearing how early we have to start the next day. Nobody has had it in them to do anything but go to sleep afterward. Oryx is an extrovert. I am not. I know she's been looking forward to social time for a very long time. We always have fun on these. I'm trying hard not to be sad because I know she's been excited about this.
This is where the gratefulness happens. She's been nothing short of understanding. She's been caring for me every night. Keeping me positive through the day while I'm wading through the bullshit. She never ceases to amaze me. When she told me her priority as my domme was my well-being, I knew she meant it. I didn't know she'd be able to put me ahead of her feelings first every single time. When I have questions about what makes some people want to submit and serve....this is it for me. She absolutely deserves it. In fact, it's the least I can do for her to show how much I appreciate her. Her empathy, support, and caregiving are unwaivering. She waits until I'm ok before addressing her needs and feelings. I can't imagine how difficult that has to be for her. How much self awareness it takes. Discipline and control. It's for this reason I will always kneel for her. Refer to her as Ma'am or My Love. Always put forth my best effort with my duties. And respect her.
I may not be conveying the magnitude of this accurately. I'm not sure I can honestly. We've not been able to do anything she's had planned and she has every right to be disappointed. The fact that she would rather be here with me,despite having to put her plans on the back burner, will stay with me forever.
Ma'am, My Love, thank you. Thank you for your patience and understanding. Thank you for taking care of me. Thank you. The weekend isn't over yet. I'm bound and determined to serve you by making your plans happen. Come hell or high water. I'm bound and determined to be bound by you tonight ;). I love you.
