Lani
I am sitting across looking into the eyes of a man who stated from the very beginning, “I am dominant.”
Why am I here? What purpose did he want to meet? We can continue on the path we were on. A “friendship” as I lust after him.
“ I have decided to give you the power tonight.”
‘Wait what?’ I thought. “Explain”
“I trust you and I want to see if I can let another be in charge of my needs without being told what to do.” He said this in a matter of fact tone but radiating dominance from every pore.
“Marcus you would not be able…”
“I can do it with you. I trust you.”
Shit why did he say that? If he only knew what I wanted from him. My mind and my body are at odds when I am doing a scene. The fact we joke around about what would be done to the other if we ever had the chance to, makes things even worse.
“This would change things with us.”
“No it wouldn’t. It’s only one time and then we go back to the way things were.”
He is fucking lying. We do this and it changes things.
“Lani, are you saying you will not take the opportunity to break me?”
He is challenging me. He knows me too well. My hands are beginning to burn and like a dog that has not eaten in a while I am salivating.
“State your limits.”
“You know them.”
“I know the limits you have your subs tell you. What are your limits? What part of you is off limits. What can I do? That is a hard no.”
There was a flash of uncertainty.
“You know what I like to do. There are times I leave a mark. Not where everyone can see but you can feel it for days. There are implements and…”
“Fine. I know what you like and I just…just..”
“Just what Marcus? Speak”
“Want to explore. I want to do it with you alright. One time.”
I stared at him intensely. Reading his body language. He’s tightly woven. Unsure if he can be taken. In all ways.
“Color?”
“Blue” he said
“That is your safe word when you are ungagged. When you need a moment and you can not speak, raise your pointer finger. You want me to stop two fingers. This is supposed to be pleasurable and slightly therapeutic. I do not truly know what is going in that mind of yours but once you give me the go ahead we will begin.”
He smiled and the dominance rolled back into place. He does not believe I can do this.
“Lani, you have my consent.”
Marcus
She is doubting I can submit to her, We have been on the same page from the moment we met. There were times I thought of breaking her. Letting her release any of those demons she has inside.
Then I thought to my self, it must have been seven months back, I have fucking demons and I have a curiosity that I never explored before.
“Marcus go into your room and take everything off up to your briefs. When I return I expect you to have your head bowed eyes on the floor, hands unfisted and your stance. Correct it. Legs not so wide.” Lani said and left
What the fuck. My stance is not wide. I went to the bathroom and looked at my stance. It does not look wide. I picked up my phone and looked at male subs and I mimicked how they stood. That was awkward. It was not much to adjust.
I undressed and I started to feel uncomfortable. I should have said’ no urinating or scat’. She’s not into it but I should have said it anyway
‘Marcus it’s Lani.’ the thought ran through my mind.
Shit what am I thinking? It’s fucking Lani. I watched a session she had with a sub because he wanted to be watched and she…
Fuck it was hot but can I let her do that?
I am secure in my masculinity and nothing is being taken by force. I agreed to it.
“Marcus man up” I said to the person in the mirror.
I was down to my briefs and went to the bedroom. That is when I heard the door open and close.
“Get in here now.”
Oh fuck, I know the tone. She is ready. Am I?