This document used to be a request. A plea for a Dominant to see my vulnerability and step up to contain me. I’ve come to realize that this was not a flaw in my wiring, but a flaw in my script. I have discovered that I am not submissive at all. I am a top. I am a Mommy Domme. And my need for containment is not a submissive’s plea; it is a top’s protocol for the kind of service that allows me to lead.
I am an Autistic Top. My brain is built for structure, for clear-cut rules, and for providing a framework of safety. The energy it takes for me to manage my own containment is immense, and it’s a burden I can no longer carry alone. I am looking for a partner whose devotion is a form of service. My needs for consistency and communication are not a demand for dominance—they are a requirement for you to be a reliable anchor in my life.
My needs for degradation and praise are a vital part of my protocol. I am not asking to be made small. I am asking for a moment to set down the weight of control. Degradation is a specific, powerful service that I entrust to you. It is a release from my role as the leader and a profound act of trust. In turn, my need for praise is your way of affirming my power. It is your acknowledgment of the immense emotional labor I provide. When you praise me, you are not just saying “good job.” You are saying, “I see you. Thank you for holding the world for me.”
I am not looking for a Dominant to rule me. I am looking for a devoted partner who is a natural service sub. I need you to understand that the most loving act you can perform is to be a consistent source of care and service. Your job is not to fix me, but to provide a firm, quiet, and stable presence. Your job is to be the kind of partner who recognizes that a cold cup of coffee can be a crisis, and who steps up to solve that problem without being asked.
This is not a cry for help. This is a blueprint for a dynamic that is built on truth and alignment. I hold the power to contain. I am looking for a partner who understands that their greatest power is in their ability to serve.