I know I said goodnight but I can't sleep and I think I pissed off my loves. Both are now sleeping, which I'm glad they are. They need their sleep, they both are dealing with a lot. I also know my crap is a lot to take on and I don't blame them for taking a step back. I just never thought I would get to the point where my heart hurt this much because it's filled with love and I know I'm not doing a good job at being my Submissive self and I know it's upsetting to them...
I'm not angry, I'm just hurting... The thought that I will never see one of my best friends again, is painful and it sucks... Talking with my other friend who was injured and hearing how he blames himself is also heart breaking...
So I'M sitting on my staircase with Hank writing all these thoughts down, because I don't have anyone else to talk to about this right now.... I'm not made of China, but I could sure use a hug and a chest to cry on. Just to feel safe and loved for a little while ?
Violet and Hank ??