9pm
April 8, 2026
So today I only half of what I wanted to do. I did minimal self care, used a coupon that was going to expire today and used a $10 dollar cash reward from my favorite plus size store: Torrid. I helped a guy reach climax by watching him cum on cam. He is a vouyyeurist and took pleasure for being watched doing sexual acts. Part of me feels I should get into the industry where I help both men and women embrace their sexual urges or gratifications. Maybe go back to school and take up sexology to become a sexologist. I don't know maybe a cam girl or working girl like they permit in the UK. I talked to three men last night. One of whom was checking up on me to see how I am doing. I wish he could just stop working so hard and just spend time with me instead. But I understand why he works hard and why I can't get close to him. Being betrayed so many times is bound to develop mistreats to other people. I keep seeing my dream dom more and more when I sleep. Falling for an image of him but looking deseperately through life for his essence. My dream daddy dom had me near his feet. He has me sucking his cock completely blindfolded, there is this buzzing noise between my legs controling when I can cum, always edging me but never letting me cum. I have hot soy wax that dried on my tits and my ass, he keeps shocking me whenever I start to slow down or pause from sucking his cock. My body begs and pleads for him to take me deeply, forcibly primal ravage my cunt. When he finally gets to cum in my mouth and he fufills my desire. I feel like I am floating on a cloud, like i am in heaven and truly madly in love with my daddy dom. I would love to be his submissive and his wife all in one. Yet again I have to wait and get myself together before I can have him.