I seem to be desired yesterday. First my ex who has a severe mental illness wanted me back. A male friend i have lost touch with wants me as their modern day concubine. Another man I met will running errands wants a 24/7 house sub. Yet the one I really want has no interest in me. It is hard to find that long haired man of Asian descent. i keep seeing my late lover in my dreams wanting me, begging me to let go and release control. I would love more than anything to give up control of my body, my soul, and my mind to a responsible respectful dom. But the ones i see are mainly fakes or they say they are doms but sound like they are trying to hard and might be a submissive deep down and not realize it. I want to act a CNC fantasy involving me being punished for acting like a bitch to them. I love to have a symbol of their love impermanently written on my chest just to show off and right before they reach climax. They gently choke me while they fill me with their life seed. I crave it so much.I
16 hours ago. Wednesday, February 25, 2026 at 1:45 AM