Sometimes my life just shudders to a halt and I have to get of the bus and walk away to a spot behind a high wall and feel safe .
My life was always mine to live mine to own and I made the decisions about me. Even as a child when I was left in the dark and told to find the door myself as no one gave a fuck I have made my decisions.
Two years ago this all changed and I've had to let go and leave it to others. This was very hard for me to do. It wasn't because I was a proud walking tall walking free all my own person no it was because I had no other option. First time I believe in my life all options were removed and I had to truly accept. I did. I do and I have done since. It's how I'm able to get of and on the bus otherwise I think I'd never come back out from behind that high wall.