One of my conversations yesterday made me realize something - even if you are honest and upfront in all you do, there are still people who will believe you have ulterior motives. This person could not believe I would come to a site like this one if I wasn't 'looking' for something, and implied maybe I did not even know what that something is.
So let's set things straight. I am here because my Daddy and I are in a space where we are still sorting out what it means to be Daddy and babygirl. He has no experience in BDSM and is learning as he goes. He is prideful and does not want to admit when he needs help. Additionally, he is very possessive and as such does not allow me to venture out into the local kink community for interactions. My friends are all vanilla and, having been a couple for more than twenty years, most of our friends are mutual. So if Daddy and I are having a problem, or if I need someone to talk to, I can't go to them.
In the past few years, this has caused me to withdraw even more. I spend my time at work, or with Daddy. There is the occasional day when I am off work during the week because I work a flexible schedule and that is when you will find me here the most. I am an introvert, so most times I prefer to be alone, but even I get lonely. And lately I have been feeling increasingly lonely and shut out from the world.
Being here gives me a feeling of normalcy. Reading the blogs of the Dominants and submissives is both enlightening and entertaining. I've tried the chat but I honestly feel very out of place there and beyond saying hi do not usually get involved in the flow of conversation. I feel much more comfortable using the bond messaging system. It's easier for me to concentrate on one-on-one interactions then try and insert myself into a room full of people who already all know each other.
So if I do message you, please believe I have no motives beyond seeking friendship, mentorship or entertainment. And if you are looking for the same things, please feel free to message me as well. :)
