Introduction Part 2
I ran into some feedback to Introduction this morning that felt controlling rather than recognizing. I let it sit there for a few hours, cleaned it off, and want to write a little further.
This is who I am. I didn’t wander into this space off the street nor have I years of experience in a role. I do however have years of experience in the inner life. In dealing with trauma and emotional patterns for survival. In refusing to abandon the heart and my orientation to love in order to mollify suffering. I have not flinched at the darkness and the darkness has not overcome me.
I write as I write. I speak as I speak. I was initiated into a new depth when life shed layer after layer of what I had built and could count on. Uranus in Taurus burned every down. Everything but me. I didn’t receive a roadmap when I walked out of hell with the ashes still in my hair and clothing. The hero’s journey, tarot, and myth say this is not the end but a new beginning. The new man must re-integrate into the world to complete the cycle. Chiron must take what was wounded and transmute it into what heals. I’m in the first days of a deeper register. I’m finding my way.
The world is undergoing a change in these times as well. If you know this you are ahead of the curve.
We must return to the heart. That is where I am going. There is nowhere else to go.
Ask Rumi to speak more plainly. As Thomas Merton to explain what he means. They can’t. If they did the inner meaning would be stripped away. If you have ears to hear then you will hear. If you do not then you won’t. I exist in my own authority and I will meet you in the heart.