Music isn't loud enough
Sleeping is rough
Anger and hatred
Papers shredded
Contemplating suicide
In drugs confide
A mask of disguise
Hiding behind these lies
Sleepless nights alone
Never wanting to be home
White powder on a mirror
Facing the horror
Of Infecting judgement
Having no placement
Killing loneliness
Replacing emptiness
Nothing fills this empty hole
Too bad I can't fill a six foot hole
Two promises made
I'm stuck in a cage
Trapped by my fears
Blinded by my tears
Greeting solitude
Having no attitude
Stuck in this life
Playing with hatchets and my knife
Seeing blood form into streams
In these unwanted dreams
Holding on to hopes and ambitions
Not finding the key that starts the ignition
Set ablaze these walls around me
Watch them burn and collapse around me
As I stand in the ashes and smoke
I try to speak words but only choke
I open my mouth but no words come out
Looking for passage on any route
Minute by minute hour by hour
The sweet turns sour
Bittersweet memories left in my head
Thoughts to my brain that never should have been fed
3-1-12 J. Trueblood