It's never the same to restart something.
To go back to the beginning... it can suck. All the work, the time, the effort, the highs and lows that were gone through to get there just to have it all be restarted.
Though it may seem dismal going back to the beginning, there is an upside.... experience. You come out at the end knowing so much more about yourself that you didn't before.
It isn't easy. I know this I've had... a lot of resets in many aspects of my life. Some intentional, most of them not. And each one has taught me something. Some things good and helpful. others... not so good....
I like to joke that my family saves people. But really we do. my family has been in the emergency services all my life. My brother and I have joined one form or another. We have been the faces people see on some of their worst days. But I like that I was there for them. I feel pride in knowing I did something good. I helped them. It's not only physically saving someone but mentally as well. Having someone tell me that I helped them through a hard week, day, moment. It makes me feel appreciated. Like I did good for someone.
I guess that's my blurb tonight lol... I'm not sure what else to say...
I hope you're day is good, and it will be if only you let it 😚