Jon's Blog

Was cancelled ahead of time, visitors a day early. I made it up to her (a bit).by sneaking off to give her a couple of minutes here and there.

Absence makes the heart grow fonder. As I assured her I wasn't upset with her announcement she had a date planned with her boyfriend now.

Poor girl can't articulate why I'm pleased. But she instinctively knew in a way I think. Just so much that she's aware is... More than enough. Did I mention our situation was fucked? :D. That's alright, for truely I trust she'll make smart decisions in the end. 

I got her worked up while we were on the phone. One thing led to another and.. date night came early. 

My Kitten is very new any time of long distance, any type of dirty talk. So much fun to take those first times from anyone. Talking her to Orgasm was the icing to a wonderful night.

She'd riled me up a little earlier in the day, she crossed a boundary she didn't know I had with some of her playing. I didn't get angry, but I was wounded. I let her know how difficult it was to be have zero situational control over whatever 'we' are. That the only part of her I could lay claim was her slut-side, not because I don't want more. Just because at this time it's what she has to offer me.

I certainly love her more, she'll admit that.

After she calmed down from our romp, she asked me 'Daddy are you still upset'. And I just melted. I told her it's not transactional, that I had already recognized my own shortlived jealousy and insecurities and how she helped me through them that day. And I asked if that was the only reason why she fucked me. She laughed and said no, it had nothing to do with it. I just turned her on.

She just wondered if the gift of her body was enough to quiet those insecurities.

And yeah, after tonight. I'm not real worried she's going anywhere. I'm not worried I'm getting played. I'm not worried she's using me as others have before. 

I'm a lucky man.

She set aside time on the calendar. She's looking forward to me. We got a date.

Just to call and talk. 

She wasn't upset when I called it that

Excited to steal her away from it all. Excited to just hear her again. It's been a few days sense we've been able to and despite me only recently forming this connection with her. Fuck, I'm lonely without her now when I wasn't before, I wasn't lonely. Just alone.

Sacrifices I suppose

Fucked up impossible journey time. Chasing after a girl across the whole of the USA. Probably gotta change my whole life to get there but...

She's such a dirty whore it's worth it. And no one knew it till she found me. It's too perfect.

My life isn't perfect. But at 28 I'm mostly together, much wiser than I've ever been but more importantly. I've got the consistent willpower and foresight to make shit run.. better. Then 2 weeks ago a Kitten showed up on my doorstep.

This is gunna be a rough one so. I figured I would keep things organized here.

I love her. She's got a boyfriend. Strict parents. A degree and a serious career. She plays nice. She says she loves me.

She admitted she was unconsciously looking for a guy to lead on before she left he current man but instead, she's being lead.

We've live chatted and all that, she won't let me fly out juuuuust yet.

I'll keep y'all updated

-but for how long?

Is this place more active because of quarantine? XD