all my life I have been running away from people telling me what to do.
to be free and do what ever I want and say fuck everyone else.
At the same time I’m looking to be told what to do.
what is this ? Is this the meaning of submission ? Is it because I want the freedom but I want to freely give it to some one I deem worthy ?
or is it “what goes around comes around” like the things I didn’t like as a kid and love as an adult ?
Why am I looking to obey ? Why does it make me content?
or is it because when I was living with my parents they were the ones disciplining me and now that I’m on my own I realize that I need it ?
is it because I know I have the tools but I can’t focus on my own and need the discipline to achieve what I know I can be and do ?
These are the things circling my head.
Why do you obey?