*Beware - sensitive information follows...As always, I have fully negotiated sharing personal interactions with others, in this case, very personal interactions.*
So my mouse (Her_mouse) and I have been in a D/s relationship for about a year. We are very comfortable with eachother and enjoy a healthy dynamic. We enjoy the journey and evolving together. One of the things we enjoy most is exploring new things together. One of our most recent new, but common, interests has been urethral sounding.
Now, I am a careful person. I realized that there are some inherent risks in an activity such as this. I have done my research, started slow and careful, negotiated fiercely with my mouse, done my research, and I generally prepared myself for the activity, or so I thought...
Our last session was not our first experience with sounding (it was more like our second) but my mouse enjoyed it the last time, and knowing that I exercised restraint, he requested more intense sounding play at our next opportunity. A request I was happy to grant.
When the time came my mouse found himself thoroughly restrained to a low table and blindfolded. I did what I always do to prepare for sounding. I got all my materials, sterile lube, gloves and such. I pull up a seat next to him and begin doing my thing. I start off with not my smallest sound, but one I felt was appropriate for building on the play from last time. Finding it was a perfect size for now, I inserted it till I felt the resistance I have come to expect from his body. Happy with myself, I pull my hand away to admire my work, keeping one hand on his cock. There was a healthy 2 inches or so of sound exposed. As I am watching him, either he shifted or I did, cause that sound suddenly dropped like a rock, disappearing completely from sight.
(Now, in the interest of clarity I measured my sounds prior to writing this. They are over 8 inches long.) My initial reation in panic, as I see the sound dropping, is a death grip his cock in an attemt to prevent it from disappearing, unsuccessfully. Not knowing what else to do, I am just sitting there for a moment with a grip that could only mean something was terribly wrong. My mouse, blindfolded, tensed but says nothing. As I am sitting, there gripping him fiercely, I go into crisis management, apparently forgetting all of highschool biology class, with a swarm of thoughts in my mind...If I let go, will his body swallow this sound? Do I have him get up? Roll over? (recall that he is fully restrained and one of my hands is occupied.) If he moves will it hurt him? How do I free him safely if I need his help? Wondering if I should just sit there forever may have floated through my mind...After what felt like a lifetime, I decided I needed to stand up and look to see what I was dealing with. Thankfully, my mouse was in no discomfort, just quietly waiting for an explaination, eventually a timid peep comes from him inquiring if everything is ok. As I am carefully shifting around to better assess the situation, the movement causes the tiniest amount of the sound to become visible and luckily was all I needed. Practically shaking from the adrenaline, I remove the sound and tell him as calmly as I can that I thought I had lost the sound but everything was ok. I immediately abandoned all sounding activities, and don't even recall much of the rest of the session, though I know I moved on to activities more within my comfort zone.
As we rolled into aftercare, I came clean on the experience. We had a good laugh and no harm was done. But indeed this experience was a learning moment for me.
I learned that you can always be more prepared than you currently are. And I learned that you can't always prepare for everything. Mistakes happen and you can't take yourself too seriously. Laugh it off, and let it grow you as a person. These things will happen; auto-correct will mess with your naughty talk, toys will fail you, and interruption will ruin your scene. You can take it in stride or let it fuck you up. At the very least, you will have a fun story to blog about...
*mouse has explicit instructions to not read this until he posts his own version of events in his own blog. I will not be proofing it, nor did I provide any guidance on what he should write other then to be honest. We have discussed this and feel the other perspective is important in this discussion. Enjoy.*
