6 months of service

Today started off just as normal as the rest. I woke up and he was already at work. I’m always disappointed when I sleep through him leaving. I crawled out of bed and down stairs for some coffee, I’ve been trying to cut down to only one cup a day, and have been doing pretty good, today though I drank the pot and most of the next one I made. I didn’t sleep last night. Im not sure if it was the excitement or anxiety.
I ended up finishing off about 4 cups while I scrolled through my phone. Once I was finally able to get myself motivated to get dressed I started feeling a bit better and decided to go to the store to do some grocery shopping (really wish there was a role absolutely forbidding me to grocery shop). I grabbed a few food items and some personal things we need and headed home.
I spent most of the day just lounging around, I tried a few times to get in to a book I picked up but couldn’t find it interesting. I finally gave in to my exhaustion and took a nap.
I slept for two hours, longest nap I have ever taken, but instead of waking up feeling refreshed I felt groggy and slow. I pushed myself to get up and get some cleaning done followed by getting dinner prepared to go in the oven. I waited a bit and put dinner in the oven and sat back down to attempt to read my book.
I read at the kitchen table for awhile and then heard the downstairs door open that leads to the garage. My husband came up the stairs, greeted me with a kiss and went up to our room to shower. In the time he was gone I got dinner out of the oven, fixed both of our plates, and sat them on the table.
He finished up with his shower and came to the table. He was telling me about some details on one of the projects he’s working on, I tried my best to pay attention and show interest but my mind kept drifting. I wondered if he would still tell me about his day when I was no longer allowed to sit at the table with him, would he still ask about mine?
We finished up dinner and he helped me clean up. While cleaning up he asked if I wanted to talk now or later. I chose later and suggested we watch a movie.
We cuddled on the couch and watched our movie.
When it was over we went up to our bedroom and out to the balcony to talk.
He asked me first if I was still sure that I wanted to do this, reassuring me that he would be fine if I no longer wanted to. I told him that I was sure, that I had given it a lot of thought and that I definitely wanted to pursue this opportunity, and that I didn’t think we would ever be a better time to brace these roles so fully. ( I am currently out of school waiting to be accepted in to a program I need to finish my degree, we also plan on starting a family shortly after I finish school). We talked on that for awhile, then he went to retrieve the list of rules. He handed them to me and told me to start with number one.
I read them to him one by one for the second time (this time was much more pleasant than the last), we discussed each one individually in great detail. We reached one that I was having a bit of difficulty on, he told me to mark it and continue. I read through the rest of the rules, marking a few that I wanted to discuss. He also added a few that he said he had forgot to add in. Once I was finished we went back to the first marked rule.

Added rules.
Slave will have daily rituals that are not to be altered under any circumstances. Also includes a few subcategories I will go in to later.
Slave is to memorize all positions and corresponding names.
Slave will memorize all hand signals and commands.
Master will decide what slave wears while out of the house with friends

Marked rules.
Slave will give her body to please others if master orders it.

This is actually a topic we have discussed before. He confessed a few years back that he occasionally would get himself off to the though of me being fucked by someone else. The idea turned me on, and on multiple occasions we have even made plans to go through with it, which all ended with me calling quits. Not really sure why I would always back away from something that excited me but I always did. I fully expected this to be something he would push forward on. Some of the sub catagories are now. Master will be present at all times, others are not to punish, protection will always be used, others will not cum in slave. And a few others.

The next marked rule.

Slave is to understand that master may take other women.
This to we have discussed. I’m not to thrilled with it and requested that additional rules be added. The sub catagories to this one are now. He is to never cum in another woman, he is to always use protection, the same woman will not be used twice, he is to never take another woman without my presence, slave is to assist when ordered, slave is to kneel quietly with head bowed unless told otherwise.

Anal.
Surprise!! Surprise!! I am a sub that has actually never done anal. We have played a bit, allowing him to put a small vibe in me and a finger, but damn his cock is way to thick. So of course this was on the list and I fully excepted it to be. I didn’t add anything to this but an eye roll. He laughed and promised to take his time and be gentle.

Pet play

This one was a bit of a surprise. He has never showed an interest in this, maybe
he just discovered it recently since we have always been very open. I spent sometime researching this one since it was new to me and it seems pretty harmless. There are a few subcategories with this one also that dictates my behavior and such.

There was a few more minor things we discussed and some things I needed clarification on, but the talk went very smoothly. Once we were done he went to retype it for us both to sign. He came back with a folder that had a few pieces of paper. Inside was basically a study guide on positions and commands and a list of articles he wanted me to look up and read.
We finished off the night having a few beers and talking as the sun went down. He decided he should get to bed soon so we took a shower together, which was very nice and he headed off to bed. I have a much harder time sleeping so here I am in our living room writing to myself, him, and the world again.

Today started off pretty uneventful. My husband had suggested that I meet up with some friends and have a relaxing day. I took his advice and met a couple for breakfast then a bit of shopping.
I returned home and as I pulled in to the drive I noticed his work truck. I went in and upstairs to greet him.
It turned out he had taken the day off to make preparations. Our house is a pretty large tri-level home. Our top level consists of two  master bedrooms. One we use as our bedroom and the other a spare room.
He had installed a lock on the spare room and kept himself busy most rest of the day. I tried on several occasions to see if I could get a peek but he was not having it.
I was able to see cardboard boxes, but could not find any labels or pictures, nothing telling what they contained.
I watched him carry some of the boxes up the stairs and a few seemed quite heavy. He didn’t speak much and seemed determined to finish his task, looking like a little boy carrying his Christmas presents to his room.
I cooked dinner and once it was done I knocked on the door letting him know it was time to eat. He managed to slip out without me getting a peek in.
We ate dinner and talked about normal things, his work, and how my friends were. I cleaned up afterward and he returned to the room.
Not long after disappearing in to the room he came back out and locked the door behind him. He showered while I laid in bed and read. We talked a bit more and he fell asleep. I’m sitting up writing in my diary and posting. I’ll be off to bed in a few moments. I wake up tomorrow morning to live out my last day of freedom for at least 6 months.
Sorry so short and uninteresting, I’m sure that will change soon.
Goodnight.

As promised I have typed up some of the rules. This is not a complete list and many of the rules are also broken down in more detail. I will try to find the time eventually to put the entire thing up. 

When you feel unsafe or are in too much pain, you are required to speak up - even when I have told you to be silent. If you are not able to verbalize it, you may express it in whatever way suits the circumstances. You must be careful not to take more than you can handle, and I need feedback to know when to stop. You will be given hand signals to use when you are not able to verbalize and a method will always be in place for you to put and end to the situation.

Build up your tolerances to the level I wish you to have, being careful not to push yourself further or faster than your body or mind is ready to endure.

You must discuss any issues you have with Me, especially any which affect trust between us. Your goal is to trust Me and to retain My trust. My concern for your total safety includes emotional, psychological, social, sexual, and physical health

Do not hesitate in obedience to Me unless you perceive a threat to your physical or mental safety. Communicate the problem, in detail, as quickly as possible. If you do not understand an instruction, ask for clarification.

You are always in submission to Me whether I am present or not. Be ready to please Me at anytime, in any place, under any circumstances, regardless of who may be present

Confess to Me when you have disobeyed so that we may discuss why the violation took place and how to prevent a repetition. I may require you to do restitution.

Punishments during your first 2 weeks of training will be mild, punishments thereafter should be exceedingly rare and will be chosen based on the infraction. You must accept my decision.

Spankings, and acts similar are not always punishment. Master will make it clear to you when you are being punished and why.

When in My presence, but not in use, find something useful or relaxing to do until I need your active service.Spend your free time doing more than studying. Read a book that is not a textbook, take a bath, watch a movie. Free time may or may not be a predetermined time and can be cancelled at masters discretion

Wear the collar I have given you with pride, for it signifies My ownership of you and your devotion to Me.
You will be collared at all times. You will be given two collars initially. One to be worn at all times except when you are permitted to put on your public collar.

Slave will not eat at the same table as master Slave will be provided a set of dishes for its food, and will eat at masters feet. Slave will never begin eating before master, and will wait patiently for permission to begin. Slave is never allowed to use its hands to eat.

Slave will not sleep in the same bed as master. Slave will awake 30 min before master and be waiting in position for master to awake. Slave will ask if there is any further requirements of her before going to sleep. Slave will never sleep before master.

Slave will not use the bathroom without permission. Slave is not allowed to use the guest bathroom. When out of the house slave is to use the bathroom as necessary, unless told otherwise.

Slave will clean all equipment used during her training. Slave will keep all equipment cleaned at all times and be subject to inspection.

Slave is required to schedule 4 nights out a month with friends. Slave will give 12 hours notice of any plans. Slave is permitted time with her mother at any time, all tasks will be suspended immediately if slave needed for slaves mother. Slave may spend free time out with other family. Slave will give as much notice as possible.

Slave will not make eye contact unless given permission.

Slave will not touch master without permission.

Slave will not speak unless spoken to or finds it absolutely necessary to.

Slave will not use furniture unless given permission

Slave must thank Master for punishments and accept them gracefully

Slave will remain nude in the house at all times, this includes free time. When slave leaves the house for family, friends, shopping, or activities of that type slave is permitted to dress freely. Slave will strip at the door upon returning to the house.

During non free time trips out of the house slave is never permitted to wear panties. Slave is only permitted one thin layer of fabric covering slaves nipples. Slave is to always wear dresses or skirts. Slave will address master as sir during these times.

All previous limits are abolished, minus what we have previously stated. These will be added in when we discuss these rules prior to your servitude’s

Went to dinner with my husband last night and had a great and relaxing time, although I couldn’t help but wonder if this would be the last time for awhile. Once we got home he went for a shower then to our office to finish up some work from the day. Later, once he was ready to settle in for the night I finally got an opportunity to cuddle up to him. I tried initiating sex with him and was completely ignored. It’s not that I haven’t been turned down before, usually with I’m tired, or sore, I promise to make it up to you. Tonight he just completely shut down my advances with no explanation. This threw me a bit and honestly hurt my feelings.

Woke up this morning feeling a bit more relaxed than the last few days since we decided to make this progression. Went about my normal morning routine then out to breakfast with some friends. I haven’t had much time to spend with my friends for quite some time due to school, studying, and personal obligations. It was a quick breakfast though because during dinner last night my husband informed me that people were coming to work on the house anywhere from 10-2 and it would take several hours.
I came back home and decided to do some cleaning while I waited for the repair men. There is a ring at my doorbell. Shockingly they showed up a bit early. I answered the door to a young guy in a uniform and I could see several others going through things in the driveway out in front of my house. They weren’t repair men as I was expecting, but were from a home security company. The guy handed me a work order to sign explaining what my husband had ordered. I signed without reading and he went back to his van. They spent awhile outside installing some cameras and I occasionally peeked out the window to see where they were placing them. None of this struck me as odd, we had discussed getting a system several times prior. After about an hour the same guy knocked in my door telling me they were ready to move in to the house, a bit confused I let them in. They spent the next two hours placing camera in every single room of my house, including the hallways, garage, and even the bathrooms. As they started with the main parts of the house I wasn’t thrown much, but my heart started racing as they entered the bedrooms and bathrooms. After about two hours they were finally done and the same guy walked in to the living room where I was while on the phone with my husband explaining to him how to access the system from afar. They left shortly after and I sat on the couch in shock, suddenly I grew very uncomfortable knowing he was probably watching me in complete amusement. I wanted to hide from him, I wanted to be able to have the freedom to react without him enjoying it.
So it starts I guess. I’m still waiting for him to present me with the rules that he has drawn out, and getting more nervous the longer it takes. I can tell now he is putting much more thought in to this than I thought he would.
As I walk around and count the cameras I get a bit angry, and in an act of defiance i decide to grab a dildo from our box and make myself comfortable on the couch. Looking in to the camera I make quick work of fucking my self through my first orgasam, making sure it is obvious to him if he is watching. I keep working the dildo in to me and finally reach orgasam the second time. Just as I begin to sit up from the couch his text tone alerts and brings me slamming back to reality.
“Do you think your cute, did you enjoy yourself”.
Do you think your cute? I know that question, he has asked it on multiple occasions when I have acted out.
“See that wet spot you left on my couch? I want your face in it when I get home, with your bare ass in the air”. Honestly the only thing that really struck me in this last text was “my couch”. When did it become his and not ours.
I spent the next few hours cleaning, then went to to see what I could prepare for dinner. I needed something I could just stick in the over and let cook. I had no idea what time he would be home and needed to be bent over the couch and ready when he walked through the door. I finally came up with something and got it prepared and in the over.
I decided to go take a quick shower. He usually comes home anywhere between 4-5, sometimes a bit later. Since I had no idea exactly what time I decided it was best not to ask and just do as I was told.
I dressed in a silk chemise with no panties. Just a few minutes past 4 I bent over the couch, putting my face in the spot that my juices and seeped in to earlier. I pulled up my nightgown to my mid back and waited. As I’m laying there I suddenly remembered the cameras, my body flushed with embarrassing heat knowing that he was probably watching me. It passed five and I was still bent over the couch. My back and calves burning, I started to wonder how long i would be in this position, dinner would be done soon and the last thing I wanted was for him to come through the door as I was pulling it out.
About half after I heard the garage door open and close. My heart began to race, my hands even trembling a bit. All of my other punishments up to this point have been more playful, but I was suspecting that since we made our new agreement that he might be more rough. My mind raced as I heard him coming through the house. I told myself to calm down, the arrangement doesn’t actually start until Saturday, at this moment I am still his sub with limits not his slave in complete control.
He came in to the room quietly, sitting his keys on the table next to me. I stayed quiet. He stepped close to me, finally speaking he asked if I had anything to say for myself. The only thing I could think to say was to ask him if he could take dinner from the oven. He stepped away and I could hear him in the kitchen.
He stepped back behind me, places his hands on the back of my thighs and pushed my legs to the side of the couch, causing my ass to rise a bit more.
You have nothing else to say for yourself, was the next words I heard and decided I should apologize for being a brat earlier and teasing him. I apologized quickly and quietly. His hand went to my ass cheek and squeezed. “Your lucky it’s only Wednesday”. My heart sank. My thoughts exactly I thought to myself.
I heard the clanking of his belt as he pulled it from his pants. I braved myself, but he laid it on my back. I could hear him go in to his bag and pull out papers. He laid a few in front of me and pulled my head back by my hair.
It was his list of rules.
“Read then out loud”. He said as he picked his belt up off my back.
I read the first rule and as I finished the sentence the belt smacked across my ass.

I continued on and after each rule he smacked my ass with his belt. The smack were firm but not real hard. I was able to get through about 15 if them before I was in any real pain. The next fifteen were a bit more difficult and then the fifteen after that downright miserable. He wasn’t hitting me any harder, but each one laid on top of another was taking its toll and I was squirming around and struggling to concentrate on the list. He stopped spa king me at 45 and just stood behind me as I continued reading. Once I finished he pulled me back up and told me to get dinner on the table and we would discuss them together.
We sat down at dinner, which was no easy task for me and he seemed to be quite amused. We went over each rule one by one and discussed them all.
Let me go back and make it clear that even though we have been in a Dom/ sub relationship, I have had a lot of limits. Some of those limits I have got over, some we have done mildly, and some I have held sting to.
As expected a lot of those limits were rules that I must give and obey by. Although I was completely aware that I was going to looses my my ability to enforce these it’s still a bit overwhelming.
I do want to say that i do have a set of extreme hard limits that are in place and it was in the rules that those will remain. He shares most of these with me also so it won’t be an issue.
We spent some time going over these, and I was given until Friday evening to think them over. He told me that Friday we will sit down and have a long talk again about our expectations from one another and if we agree it is something we both still want to go forward with I will enter in to servitude on Saturday.
Once we were done talking I went to clean up dinner. He stopped me and told me to bend back over the couch. I reluctantly did so. He lifted my gown back up and left the room. He came back and I felt his cool hand gently rubbing cream over my still very pink ass.
He finished and went for a shower. I layer in bed and waited for him to arrive. Once he was in comfortable I cuddled up to him and attempted to initiate sex. Once again though I was rejected without reason. He sleeping now, and I am up writing in my diary and posting it for the world to see.

My husband left for work a bit earlier than normal this morning  and I have yet to speak to him. I have a million questions to ask but I try not to bother him when he is working, I know the disruptions can be irritating. 

I posted my situation in a few different forums and received nothing but amazing support. Reading others experiences both terrify and amaze me.  

I have a few more days of freedom and am trying desperately to find fun and relaxing ways to spend it, but I always ended up playing out different scenarios in my head of the things that could happen to me  

Hr arrived home around 4:30 and we went straight to dinner. We didn’t talk much if the arrangement other than him telling me that he would have a contract for me in a day or two. My heart about dropped, he is really putting a lot of thought in to this.  

Tomorrow I am going to try to find time to go to my mothers for a visit, but he informed me at dinner that there will be people coming to work on the house between 10 and two and that it will take a few hours  

For now I’m going to go take a relaxing bath then head to bed 

My husband and I have been together for seven years, married for six. I was 18 when we married him 20. We both discovered early on that the Dom/sub lifestyle was something we wanted to practice. 

The first few years started out pretty vanilla, the last two we have been trying to explore more kinks, which I will go explain at greater depth throughout this blog. 

For the past several months we have had a growing interest in a Master/slave dynamic. We have done a lot of research and think that it will be the perfect situation for us. 

He has given me permission to write and share this blog and to consult others for advice as I fill the need.

I am going to try to update as often as possible, and answer as many questions as I can manage. 

My service isn’t to start until Saturday, and I have been told to take this time to get any personal matters in order and reflect on what I’m about to commit to