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We are leaving the house now for the BDSM Buffet on single tail.

The guy that we have facilitating is beyond talented.

I asked if he would be willing to take a couple of TAPS out on me. He answered "yes Lol".

I have another guy who is coming that does a fancy kind of single tail. He can twirl and jump over it.  It's just so hypnotic to watch him.

Today offers a lot of things for people. Not just the ability to feel the single tail, but to be able to watch, to be able to pick up a couple of whips and try for themselves, and the ability to meet the facilitator of the "whips in the park " group.

Numbers look really good. I'm really hoping that we have more of an interest in the whips in the park group to come out of this

It's going to be interesting because I go right under when I'm on the receiving end of a single tail. So here I come baby!!

I remember years ago I was watching some stupid talk show and the topic was about how adult kids were still sponging off their parents. They weren't working they weren't going to school they just live with their parents and their parents allowed that. Plus our parents gave them a budget to live off of.

When one of the adult children was questioned about what he was doing I will never forget his answer. He said "I'm trying to find myself."

I remember stopping what I was doing and staring at the TV my mouth dropped open. I was working three jobs putting myself through school. And this a****** was going surfing everyday and that's what he called trying to find himself.

I think that the pursuit of trying to find the self is a noble and worthy pursuit.

But I also firmly believe that you cannot find yourself on the backs of others.

I also firmly believe that you cannot find yourself without living life intentionally.

So many people just ride the wave. They go from school to college to marriage to kids and there they are at 43 wondering what happened to their life and their choices.

I have often considered people in BDSM to be more intentional then or vanilla counterparts. I realize this is a bias on my part and in no way based in reality.

But I remember there have been certain times in my life where I seriously had to sit down and ask myself perhaps the hardest question of life " what do I want?"

Some things were obvious once the decisions were in front of me. I wanted to go to school and get a degree. I wanted to marry my love. I wanted horses. I wanted to own our own home.

And a lot of those came with secondary questions. What kind of marriage did I want? What kind of horse have I dreamed about? Where did I want to buy a home?

There are things that I've lived absolutely intentionally. Then there are things that I haven't. Things that I've just been blessed to have come into my life.

So now that I'm a lot older I think that life needs to be a combination of both. It needs to be spontaneous and intentional.

And the best thing that you can do for life is be present.

Hello all!

I have just finished posting and advertising the new upcoming events with obsidian. We have to BDSM buffets. One is to teach single tail. And the second is on swinging.

Then we have a play Party 101 class.

I went ahead and put up e

Enchantment which is the new swinging venue that is female run here in Albuquerque. Obsidian is donating all of our equipment to the venue and I will be volunteering as a DM.

The great news is that the website for Through the Looking Glass is almost ready to go live !!!!!!

I always giggle because I get tired just posting the events. But it makes me feel really good. Obsidian is growing by Leaps and Bounds. And we're not just growing we are growing with the type of people that we are marketing to. I am so happy that this is going so well!!!

I am reeling from this last 6 weeks. 

We were without heat for about a month. 

Then my ltd insurance denied my claim because they cant see my post concussion syndrome, post concussion vertigo,  and sheer injury on a scan. 

I saw a ltd lawyer that also specializes in head injuries. All bad news. It will take 2 years and  if I get my benefits back the company can immediately deny them again. If I get a settlement it will be minimal. And the kicker- I cant work. So- no income. 

Then my other  lawyers got in a settlement check from the kids insurance.  But they sat on it. They said something isn't right. 

I'm waiting for them to turn it over to me. It was about a week.

I called today and spoke to the lawyer sitting on the check. 

The lawyer says something isnt right. The kids insurance company wont serve the kid with an affidavit saying that there is no other coverage. And moreover, the insurance company themselves will also not sign. 

This, my lawyer says, is highly unusual.  They are hiding something. 

This is good news. 

If the insurance company withheld or lied about  a second policy or an umbrella policy  then all bets are off. In other words, policy limits no longer apply and we can sue for damages. 

This will take another 2 years. But it means a very different financial future for us. 

But, that doesn't solve our "right now".  

So today I put out 4 resumes and landed a job interview for Thursday.  

I need to get back to work now. 

I still have all my original symptoms. Headache, vertigo, nausea/vomiting,  confusion.  But we have literally $2.00 to our names. 

I'm taking precautions. I applied for home hospice which means I take breaks between seeing patients in their homes.  

I have a driver set up to take me to rounds. 

I am terrified of what working will do to my symptoms. 

But I am deeply optimistic about what our future could be. 

We have 3 events coming up.

Bdsm buffet with single tail

Bdsm buffet swinging 101

Enchantment opens and I am DMing their dungeon.

Play party 101 class. 

Ok 4. 

I have no idea how I'm gonna foot the bill for Through the Looking Glass,  but I will!!!!! 

I've been irritating my concussion to see how long it takes me to recover. Not great recovery times, but the information is important.  

My love is resting. 

I am happily writing. 

Thank you folks on thecage for helping me through this very intense time !!! 

I'll be posting the upcoming events here tomorrow !!! 

I was accidentally reading a post on fetlife and someone was going off about a local dungeon being open during the big yearly event. 

They railed about how the dungeon shouldn't be competing with the event. 

Let me explain a few things. 

I have free play parties during the two yearly events that are in Albuquerque for a lot of reasons. 

A lot of folks cant afford their events.

A lot of folks feel uncomfortable at their events. 

A lot of folks have been actively treated badly at their events. 

Having options is a good thing. 

I also have events during holidays and I have events during other events. 

There are lots of people. 

There are lots of different needs. 

I do not look at what I do as competition.  Because quite frankly I'm not. I am providing a venue for people that dont go to their events anyway. 

Deciding when to have events and how is a complex thing. Admittedly nothing that I do in the name of Obsidian is neutral. 

They are  all acts of rebellion. 

That being said I am not aiming to shut anyone down. 

The racist,  homophobic,  transphobic, bigoted people also need a place to play. 

They cant do it in my space. 

Next time you see what appears to be competing events just know that it may not be what you think. 

Options are good things. 

Good morning all!

The play party on Saturday night took it out of me. I spent Sunday in bed. My concussion was raging.

But this morning I was able to get up and go feed I'm actually sitting outside right now. We got some more snow but it's kind of warm out and horses are vigorously eating.

I am hoping that my concussion symptoms continue to dissipate to their normal daily level because I would really like to play today.

I was reading a forum on the cage when I was reminded that Saturday night this most adorable trans girl who I call Kitten got the nerve up to ask me to play.

It was so cute watching her process as she got up the nerve to ask me. I was sitting at the front like I always do manning the door. I saw her go out and go to her car. I thought to myself I hope that she's okay because she looked really nervous.

And about 10 minutes later she came back to the desk and she took a deep breath and then asked.

It was so cute! But I do have to ask her a couple of questions before we play. I don't play with newbies because quite frankly they bore me. That's not ego talking. It's just that more experienced players are able to move more fluidly as the play progresses.

Also, newby's tend to send conflicting information to me because they don't quite know what to do or how to process what's going on in the moment.

But I have seen her play before in a bottoming capacity. She did say she does want marks because she enjoys those. So I'm rethinking that I might do this.

 I was thinking that I would fill her with clothespins and then flog those off.

I'm still too inexperienced at the single tail to use that on her but that would be a joy.

To be honest with you I'm not even quite sure why I said yes. One of my play Partners is in Ecuador and the other one is really sick. My love has been going through an awful lot of triggers, so play has not been healthy for her. Hopeful that today can change that. 

I'm going to go ahead and email Kitten today and see if our play needs this match up. They  may not.

The other piece is my concussion.  Since the accident play has been very limited for me. I'm not able to do heavy body impact like I used to. If I'm not careful flogging sets it off. I tend to do more intricate play where I can sit down and really focus. But even then I need time after ro recover. 

So we will see.

Thanks for listening. 

My right hand Lil Miss always I always goes Above & Beyond. Tonight is the monthly Obsidian Play Party.

Lil Miss has not only taking over hosting after our previous host ducked out absolutely last minute. She is also baked for the event and is providing a fajita bar!

Right now I am breaking down equipment, specifically the cross. She already has our two bondage tables. Stopping on the way to pick up paper goods. And needing to be there at least a half an hour early because we have an early bird coming due to their nerves.

I am really looking forward to tonight. After a very rough three years my love is actually going to be joining us at the play party tonight

I don't think we'll play, my concussion is Raging tonight. But having her there and knowing that  Lil Miss is on standby that makes me very happy.

The other thing that really gives me a lot of joy is that Obsidian is fulfilling its Target goal. We are going to have a full house plus some. And more importantly of the type of people that we are catering to.

Have a great and safe Saturday night everyone!!

My right hand Lil Miss always I always goes Above & Beyond. Tonight is the monthly Obsidian Play Party.

Lil Miss has not only taking over hosting after our previous host ducked out absolutely last minute. She is also baked for the event and is providing a fajita bar!

Right now I am breaking down equipment, specifically the cross. She already has our two bondage tables. Stopping on the way to pick up paper goods. And needing to be there at least a half an hour early because we have an early bird coming due to their nerves.

I am really looking forward to tonight. After a very rough three years my love is actually going to be joining us at the play party tonight

I don't think we'll play, my concussion is Raging tonight. But having her there and knowing that  Lil Miss is on standby that makes me very happy.

The other thing that really gives me a lot of joy is that Obsidian is fulfilling its Target goal. We are going to have a full house plus some. And more importantly of the type of people that we are catering to.

Have a great and safe Saturday night everyone!!

First OFF!!

WE HAVE HEAT! 

Second off!

I fed the horses with  found that I bought and was able to  sit with  them! 

In 3 feet of snow!  BUT STILL!

Third off!

My LTD has been  denied !

Why is this good news??

Because they fucked up!!

I have an  AMAZING LTD lawyer that SPECALIZES in  head injuries!

Fourth off:

The check  is coming in  to  get us through  the next three months!  That means that we can  take our time with the appeal! 

Fifth off:

The bills are stabllized!

Sixth:

I just bought the DOMAIN  for The Through The Looking Glass 

ACK ACK ACK ACK!!!

I AM SO VERY HAPPY!

AND I GET TO BATHE!     

Today I co-taught a class called Play Party 101. I co-taught with a very esteemed colleague Count here in Albuquerque.

I had the best time! There was a lot of laughter as their needs to be. There was a lot of questioning which was wonderful. There was a lot of people who brought their experiences forward. And I am so damn happy. I am just glowing!!!!!

Next week is the play party that's on the 12th. I'm really excited. Today was exactly what my weary heart needed.

I also want to say thank you to everybody here on the cage because your kindness and support has really helped me become a better person. Thank you everybody