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2 years ago. October 14, 2022 at 2:55 PM

Mind is just blown. This morning we reserved the truck. It is a Dodge Ram. I have wanted this truck since I was a child.

 

The 1st truck I ever had was a ranger, and something was off with the financing and the payment was like $600 a month. I wasn't making good money back then so it got repossessed..

 

The 2nd time I tried to own a truck was when I ended up in the car accident. It was a Dodge Ram it wasnt the color that I wanted, 2wheel drive. But it was still mine...

Then the car accident happened and  I was on disability and couldn't afford it--  so I turned that truck back into the dealership .

 

This is the 3rd go in a lifelong dream...  This truck will be paid off in full and it has all of the bells and whistles. She is PRETTY...

 

This has been such a long uphill battle. It's like I can't get my head around this massive accomplishment. I have wanted this for years and every time I achieved it something would happen and it would slip through my fingers. 

I'm at that place again where I am asking myself--- am I just setting myself up for this massive trauma to happen. Because I can't handle the thought of having another TBI. 

 

So many thoughts are going through my mind this morning...

 

I reached out last yesterday and started talking to the college were I will  almost likely  go for my doctorate program. Doctor . PhD. With a nice truck.

 

It's a lifetime of dreams that I cannot tell you how many years felt like it would never be possible. Like I just wasn't the one. You know?

 

I wasn't the one that had the high education,  I wasn't the one that had the nice truck,  I wasn't the one that owned the house.

I wasn't the one.

 

Because THOSE people are special in some way that I will never be

 

Coming to terms with all of this history --- as well as the ghosts in my head is deeply overwhelming.

 

 

Thanks for listening guys-----

SirsBabyDoll​(sub female)​{🍕+☕}Verified Account - I feel yeah...but guess what....

Now you are one of THOSE people, the ones that have their shit together and ar eloomed up to.

Can I have your autograph?
2 years ago
CSI - That is amazing!!! Good for you!!
2 years ago
Bunnie - This was awesome to read :)
2 years ago

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