So... I did it!
I went to a munch! And everyone was so nice!! It was just what I needed after the rubbish week I've had.
I want to write down a piece of advice I got so I don't forget: if you're a sub (and a weakling and smol and paranoid like me;) transitioning to irl can feel terrifying. I attempted to ask advice about this and got loads of encouragement. Meeting potential partners for a vanilla date first can be a great idea. An even better idea is to ask them to attend a munch with you (!!! genius, never would have occurred to me !!!) They pointed out that if the person is apprehensive to do this with you, you ought to ask yourself why. Obviously this isn't a one-size-fits-all solution, but it's a good one.
I think I've made some friends, too 😄 Everyone was so welcoming... Not intimidating in the least. I've even been invited to other events in the area which I'm excited about 😄 :) :)
Another thing that struck me was how natural it was for me to be submissive around these People. Some people, it was really obvious what their role was (how they dressed, carried themselves). Others, I didn't have a clue. But for myself I found that it was so freeing to blush or look down (after respectful eye contact ofc) or bite my lip etc, etc, etc.
These have been tiny things in my life that I've tried to train myself out of because I've been called out on it for different reasons. I always chocked it up to my dramatic side, but tonight, when I met a Dom(me) or switch it was like my whole body went into sub-mode.
I truly don't know how else to describe it except.... Freeing? It was like I was a baby bird realizing that it had wings. I was taken in like one of the flock, mothered by a few that knew how to fly already.
I can't go back to the way things were, now. I'm submissive, and I don't want it any other way.
Ivy
