Rambles, rants, insights, shares from just me

2 days ago. Thu 18 Oct 2018 05:41:19 AM IDT

I was in a dark mood this morning, but my very dear friend made me, well, not really "made" me, he just has a way of doing it - making me SMILE - genuinely. That's when I see things in a different light (I assume he doesn't even know this).... I dedicate this to Him!

 

When I smile, it may seem to brighten the room, but only you will know how deep is my gloom.

 

My Eyes so wide and innocent with a twinkle, I hide the demons within because it's simple.

 

Yet, you see right through me and simply ask, kitty, please just take off your Mask!

 

So, of course I do as you demand, because, of the love I have for your command

 

At the end of the day, you can ask all of me, only because you know me wholeheartedly!

 

xoxox 

Much love to you all!

 

 

 

2 days ago. Wed 17 Oct 2018 08:53:51 PM IDT

If I "bring" you breakfast while still in bed, a simple 'Thank you' is all I need!


Not all this 'How did you get in my house?' business.

 

Really giggled at this... as reminded me that sometimes, things are just funny and don't need to be analyzed, depicted etc.

5 days ago. Sun 14 Oct 2018 07:05:58 PM IDT

I had a conversation today with someone I like to think of as a very dear friend. During that talk, I was reminded how when I start to get close to someone, better, when THEY start to get close to me, my walls go up and I unknowingly try to push them away. It can be subtle or obvious and in the end, I just ending up running (I seemingly resonate with Julia Roberts in Runaway Bride).

 

I can try to fool myself and pretend I have no idea why, I can say I am like Julia Roberts in the movie and I just don't know who I am or what I like etc. But the truth is, I know exactly why!

 

I am afraid. And it's not that I am afraid to commit or be loved, it's the complete opposite... I am afraid if they get too close, they will see all my ugliness, they will see my deep rooted scars and not want anything to with me. Better me run first right?

 

It is so wrong I know, and also very sad, because I have probably ran from some real good people, but I will never know will I?

 

I wish it was as easy as the movie where I can just hand over my running shoes to that special someone and stay put (or, maybe find a Dom who is in the concrete business)! 

 

I am tired of running!

6 days ago. Sat 13 Oct 2018 03:56:59 PM IDT

I love this.......

 

A popular speaker started off a seminar by holding up a $20 bill. A crowd of 200 had gathered to hear him speak. He asked, “Who would like this $20 bill?”

200 hands went up.

He said, “I am going to give this $20 to one of you but first, let me do this.” He crumpled the bill up.

He then asked, “Who still wants it?”

All 200 hands were still raised.

“Well,” he replied, “What if I do this?” Then he dropped the bill on the ground and stomped on it with his shoes.

He picked it up, and showed it to the crowd. The bill was all crumpled and dirty.

“Now who still wants it?”

All the hands still went up.

“My friends, I have just showed you a very important lesson. No matter what I did to the money, you still wanted it because it did not decrease in value. It was still worth $20. Many times in our lives, life crumples us and grinds us into the dirt. We make bad decisions or deal with poor circumstances. We feel worthless. But no matter what has happened or what will happen, you will never lose your value.

You are special – Don’t ever forget it!

 

Always try to remember your own value and never let someone devalue you! 

 

Be kind to one another.

1 week ago. Thu 11 Oct 2018 03:26:27 PM IDT

Back in the days when an ice cream sundae cost much less, a 10 year old boy entered a restaurant and sat at a table. A waitress put a glass of water in front of him.

“How much is an ice cream sundae?” the Boy asked.

“50 cents,” replied the waitress.

The little boy pulled his hand out of his pocket and studied a number of coins in it.

“How much is a dish of plain ice cream?” he inquired. Some people were now waiting for a table and the waitress was a bit impatient.

“35 cents,” she said brusquely.

The little boy again counted the coins. “I’ll have the plain ice cream,” he said.

The waitress brought the ice cream, put the bill on the table and walked away. The boy finished the ice cream, paid the cashier and departed.

When the waitress came back, she began wiping down the table and then swallowed hard at what she saw.

There, placed neatly beside the empty dish, were 15 cents – her tip.

 

 

I love that story, always reminds me that there are people who often think of others before themselves.

 

Be kind to one another :)

1 week ago. Sun 07 Oct 2018 02:23:38 AM IDT

I hesitantly reactivated my account, but realized while doing so it was because I was actually "THANKFUL" for the most part to be in with such a "good" community here on The CAGE...

 

Which brings me to Thanksgiving... what I am "Thankful" for? But more importantly, "Giving" for?

 

I am thankful for those that surprise me with humanity, humility and love.... there is NO price tag or label on that! Swells this already really big heart of mine!

 

What am I giving? Well that will yet to be seen or experienced. But I am just naturally giving because that is who I am! 

 

I am back because it is what I needed! This is afterall, about me..... someone I have neglected for a very long time!

 

It is time I give to myself and give thanks to myself for being who I am!  And I also have to give BIG thanks to a VERY special person (you know who you are) that helped me realize that, through these cracks, brokeness, eyes too wide open, that through no blinders, I will just hurt, being too open, but there can be a shift, reform, repurpose of me.... which may just bring me to that place... my perfect me! Thank you my "spirit animal".

 

Happy Thanksgiving to all my Canadian friends! To all others? Let's just be thankful and giving!

 

Humbly,

Morley!

2 weeks ago. Sun 30 Sep 2018 07:10:44 AM IDT

So I sit hit here tonight with a very heavy heart, earlier today @KittyPrincess wrote a blog 'Bye' because of HURTFUL, sexism and transphobic tendencies.. so wrong!!! My heart still hurts!!!

Now, I feel even more the same from an earlier post of hers, about being blocked! WHY are people such assholes?  Yes, I know they're assholes "in real life", dealt with them all of mine, just hurts all that more when you finally feel you found your calling and Experience those assholes even more so in a community where you are looking for acceptance, guidance and approval! 

Back to my Blog subject... We are all human first, right? If we start a conversation where YOU reach out, continue to persue and it and it seems to go so well? Then, for WHATEVER reason, you decide we are NOT what YOU want? Have the fucking decency, strength and RESPECT to tell the person you are no longer interested as opposed to being just a chicken ass prick and just block them out of no where!

Again, "Blocking" IS necessary, and at times warranted, but if it just because you  NO LONGER wish to speak to the person? You are spineless? IF the latter? And after much communication?  BE a fucking human being and explain why you no longer want to speak to them and feel blocking them is necessary!

I know I am naive and always try to put trust in humanity, hoping wishing... only to be proven proven how selfish people can be! That has never stopped me to always voice my opinion in the hopes that maybe, just maybe, it does not fall on all deaf ears, maybe, a "soon to be asshole" will hear/read and reconsider!

I have, am and even moreso now, consodering closing my account! 

Of the lovely wonderful "humans" I have encountered here, there have been more assholes hete than that in my vanilla life .. seems easier to go back to what I am used to!

Rant is far from over, this pet is HURT and moreso hurting for others!!!

3 weeks ago. Fri 28 Sep 2018 04:35:25 AM IDT

I Capatilized/lowercased the "titles/labels", purposely as I do not really feel there is an actual "title/label" for any of us in this lifstyle until it has been established between the two parties who consent to that relationship.

You may be a Dom-Domme and I may be sub,slave, or even a switch (which I am not, but love all those that are), but seriously, if you were any true form of a Dom-Domme you would NEVER expect the person, and again I say "person", because we are "people" regardless of our kink, expect someone to submit, because they are or their profile say submissive!

Just like if Your (yes I capatlized that) profile states you are a Dom-Domme, does not mean you are NOT human too ...

can we not be human first than kink? No? 

Maybe I am on the wrong path if it is the latter!

 

Rant over.... for now

3 weeks ago. Tue 25 Sep 2018 03:35:49 AM IDT

I sit here tonight with a frustration... People's Profiles! Some put in so much thought, make theirs raw and transparent, telling and specific, others are very vague, and some do not say anything at all. But, hey, to each their own! Just like my kink may not be your kink, so no judgement here.

 

What my frustration is if you message someone, it should be presumed you read their profile, and the reason why you're messaging them is either their profile piqued an interest with you, or maybe it was the lack of information or being very vague that intrigued you even more. Regardless, you should be reading someone's profile before messaging them. And if you did so, and they were like myself, who took time and effort to write exactly what it is they want and do not want, then you would know to NOT message them if you clearly have different tastes/wants/kinks, whatever.

Point being, I am very clear on my profile am NOT into Poly/Non-monogomous relations. However I get messaged all the time "Hi, I read your profile, and would like to get to know you better as I feel we would be a good match" I then, read their profile and instantly see they are searching/seeking a Poly/non monogomous relationship. And I am left thinking.. are you fu@#$ing kidding me? 

Sooooo frustrating! I hate my time being wasted and liars!

 

Take the goddamn time to read a person's profile, especially if they have so graciously given many specifics, before messaging them. Or at least admit, hey "I see you are not into what I am, but would like to chat".

Honesty, Transparency, directness, and above all RESPECT goes a LONG way!!!!;!

 

Rant over... for now ;-)

1 month ago. Tue 18 Sep 2018 03:14:56 AM IDT

Do you ever feel that 'pull' with someone? The one that is so deep, you can't articulate it in words? It is all consuming, fills you completely, yet leaves you needing?

 

Oh that pull, that inner magnet. You can't touch it, you can't see it, but, oh you feel it so deep!

 

That 'pull' only happens when you meet/speak to someone and their inner magnet happens to be the positive to your negative. It is profound, it is exhilerating, it is scary, but feels like home! 

 

I yearn for that 'pull'