Discommbobulated

So cliche. Talking about my subject line. Had no other way to identify my topic tonight. So I will start with the  normal boring opening: hey there it’s been a while since I have blogged, wrote, texted, subjected people to my naughty thought process via pounding my most nasty experiences on my keyboard. After a few encounters, some very sexy, although anti-climatic encounters,I came  to the conclusion that I would post about my dry spell and initiate a convo about what to do in between the vanilla life experiences versus the forbidden. So I went on a date. Found it boring. It’s ok. Not his fault. Was eager to please. Not in the way I need . Desire. Expecting more can be a hard task. Can someone just be truthful and ask for the forbidden? Taboo? How wish I could be forthright and ask. Ummm hey there, I need a man to spank me hard, tell me what to do, while I beg to be dominated. How does one navigate this lifestyle? Feedback is greatly appreciated.