Firecracker Diaries - A combination of stories, random thoughts and an appreciation log of life with Daddy

New experiences...

Daddy has been able to teach and show me any new things over the last year. Teaching me how to be a submissive and guiding me into the ways to be the best sub I can possibly be. Yesterday was the pinnacle of my learning experiences so far!

The day started like everyday with me getting to spend time with Daddy on our Saturday. Then later in the day Daddy leaves me for a bit to go and prepare for the nights activities. He comes home with new toys...so he shares with me right then and others are for a surprise that night.

He informs me that while we are out in the evening that I will need to prepare at least 30 minutes before we leave as I will be wearing my butt plug out. Whoa...the nerves kick in. I prepare as I am told and get ready to go out. As we are out I have to visit the restroom multiple times to “re-adjust”...I really have to find a way to get used to or relax so more so my body will be more excepting...it is definitely something that is going to have to take more practice at! But I made it through the evening...and finally we headed home.

Once home he directs me to put in the slightly larger plug and then join him in the bedroom. He puts in a new porno and we start to watch...this one is hot...and by the second scene I am ready to play. I’m rubbing Daddy and sneaking makeout kisses...and finally he allows me to start to please him.

I’m working him with my mouth...when he tells me to get on my knees and face away from him. He enters me with the butt plug in place and I am overwhelmed by the fullness I feel. He alternates entering me, fingering me and sucking on my clit. I am begging him to let me cum and when he allows me...I have a massive orgasm that releases the plug ...

He then puts a blindfold on me and I am completely at his mercy. I listen as he shuffles around and then he is behind me again. He is putting something inside me and fucking me...I am going insane...he can tell I’m close again and tells me to tell him when I’m cumming...a few seconds later I’m screaming I’m cumming and then I feel something be pulled out of my ass in wonderful little bursts in rhythm with my orgasm...I’m sure I squirted...it was amazing....

But it wasn’t over....he let’s me gather myself...then tells me to get back on my knees. He starts by getting me nice a wet again...I can feel him rubbing me down with lube. Then he enters my pussy and my ass...and with each thrust of his hips both penetrations move in sync...OMG...this is ecstasy. I’m not sure how loud I was...but I’m sure the neighbors had to hear. As I start to cum yet again...Daddy fills me with his cum and send me over the top...my entire body is riding the wave of pleasure...

Daddy is wiping me down and rubbing my body...and asks me if I liked? Oh my Goodness YES...that was absolutely amazing....as he held me and caressed me I feel deep asleep...probably the best sleep of my life!

Until tomorrow...

Date night...

Tonight Daddy took me to see George Lopez. What a night!!! I laughed until my sides hurt!

We had a nice dinner and then laughed until we hurt....love it!

It’s so interesting to me how much my life has changed over the last year...I used to be a person that didn’t like to get out much. My idea of a fun time was watching my recorded shows from the week. Now I look forward to going out...getting dressed up and doing something with my love. I barely keep up with shows now except for the ones I watch with Daddy...and if I’m not watching them with him then I really don’t care about them.

I care about looking my best and satisfying Daddy...when before I really didn’t pay much attention to fashion.

I am a new person that I love!! Maybe I was always this person and It just took Daddy to open the door!!

Until tomorrow...

New shoes...

There are several things that make me smile or dance a little in my heart...but new shoes have to be at the top of the list!

I have been feeling a little ugh and a little defeated for the last week...but today Daddy surprises me with 4 pairs of new shoes!!! It makes me want to be like a crazy person and just sit in a room with all my shoes so I can just ooogle at them, organize them and let them talk to me!

It’s funny how I can just be mesmerized by some new makeup, shoes or my favorite bag. It amazes me even more that Daddy knows these little material things can like me up just like a firecracker! The best part of it for me is that he has made me this way. He spoils me deeply and I love it!

He spoils me in material things, physical things and in love. I love every minute of it...

Thank you Daddy.

Until tomorrow...

Collars

So has different collars? I have my everyday collar that’s nice and literally locked around my neck. It’s not terribly obvious...but you can tell it’s not your normal piece of jewelry. I never take it off...never....but Daddy is looking to get me a “house” collar. One that you can deny what it is...

We have a bedroom collar that is extremely uncomfortable and bulky...and I only want to wear that one for a very short amount of time. But I’m curious as to how many collars my fellow subs have? Do you have different ones for different things? Are there some you leave just for the house? Where do you get your collars from?

Please let’s discuss...

Until tomorrow...

Days at home...

It’s strange how the tasks of the day can fill up the time and take away the day before you know it. Being at home and completing my tasks I’m finding that there is less time during the day now than when I was working! While working it seems that I was counted the minutes until the day was over...and they were long minutes!

I’m am amazed at how putting in applications online is easy for some and long for others. It’s also very trying on your mental health...I mean you put in applications and then you get confirmation emails...then sometimes you get responses but mostly not...and then the responses you get say thank you but no thank you...it gets kind of depressing.

Trying to sell myself is a lot harder than I expected it to be. I’m hanging in there ...Daddy is giving me daily tasks which helps tremendously! I’m so thankful that he knows me like he does...he knows that I don’t need to get to bored!!!

Until tomorrow...

Erotic Readings part 2

So over the past several days Daddy has assigned me some readings to complete each day. One of which I read to him as he was performing different acts on me...so so hot...but anyways these readings have not only left me hot but highly curious as to some of there topics. Leaving me wondering if I would do it feel the same in the same situations.

The one I read today was about nonconsent beginnings turning into your body consenting. This made me wonder if I were in a situation where I knew what was going to happen but didn’t want it to happen but I was unwantingly consenting...would or could I end up enjoying it just because your body tells you that you are enjoying it?

Could your body betray you and enjoy it when your mind I screaming NO? If you were doing something because you had to...not because you wanted to...would your animal instincts kick in and tell your body that you are enjoying this? For example...master and I have have “rough” sexual moments...but these are enjoyable because I like it rough sometimes...and so does he...but what makes it so enjoyable is that we are hot for each other. Would I enjoy it rough if I didn’t want it with that person? Would my body go on memory and give me an amazing orgasm because it remembers how good rough can be?

Just weird thoughts that fill my brain....but would it happen?

Until tomorrow....

Erotic Reading...

Today Daddy sent me an “assignment” for reading. Just a little erotic short story. I was hesitant to read it because it was a controversial topic. He urged me to read it anyway.

I began reading and before long I was sucked into the story. Visualizing all of the details described in the story. I found myself getting aroused. Part of the story described her pussy in great detail as she got hotter and hotter. It described how she was getting wet and how her lips were swelling with anticipation.

For myself I know that when I get turned on I become wet. There have been times with Daddy that I am literally dripping with anticipation for him. I wonder if my lips swell as well...I have to say that I have never really paid attention to if they were swollen or not. I know there is wetness and there is throbbing...but swelling? Maybe..

The longer I read the more I wished Daddy was home. I craves to take him in my mouth and to have him devour me. I wanted him so badly I could feel throbbing... By the time the story was over I could have taken full advantage of Daddy...so much so I might have taken on a little dominant behavior!

Hopefully he will allow me to take my relief when he is home. I have been hot for him since the story was over....fingers crossed!!

Until tomorrow...

Reset...

It’s been a long day for sure...I’m back to square one with career opportunities. It’s the first time in my life that I have been “let go” because they couldn’t afford me? Strange...they let another female go just days before me that made probably what i did! But they can afford to keep paying for the males that do similar jobs. It’s also very curious that her and I were the only females in a leadership position. Looks to me that I was in a place that doesn’t appreciate women...or at least women with brains.

Oh well...I hated it there anyway. Now I just have to get back in the saddle and find a better one. It does throw a shot to your ego though...

Everything happens for a reason...so I look forward to finding a better place that will appreciate my talents. So here’s to sitting in front of a laptop and selling myself! lol

Through it all though I’m super thankful for Master as he is supportive in it all. Even snapping me back to reality and asking me why am I upset about it...I hated it there! Yes...very true...it’s the universe pulling me out of that negative environment and into a better place.

Until tomorrow...

Age...

Looking at my face in the mirror a I can see my age. I can see the lines setting in and the wrinkles taking residence. I try and fight them with creams, masks, serums, scrubs, make-up and treatments...it’s not helping as much as I would like but it makes me feel better!

I have a love hate relationship with getting older. I love that I have learned lots in my life...and I am thankful for the knowledge. I love sharing my thoughts and experiences with those that want to hear it. Payments for these beloved things are showing in my age and my skin...this is the part I hate.

But the thing is I wouldn’t want to give up my experiences to take away the lines. I will continue to fight the fight that I am losing to keep my experiences. Would you give up laughing to not have laugh lines? I wouldn’t...

I will continue to looks for the miracle cream and the best makeup...driving Master crazy with my accumulated stuff! I will continue to laugh, smile and let life show on my face.

Until tomorrow....

Waiting...

Well it’s another long day for Daddy...he has to work late. So I went to the gym and then enjoyed a long shower. I hate eating without him so dinner is gonna have to wait.

It’s kinda funny that even after all this time I feel like a ghost in this house without him. I just feel empty like I don’t know what to do with myself. I will probably read while I’m waiting...or surf the web...lol.

I watched a video today to enhance my oral skills...and I have to say that I think I do it better than that video. I read an article that was better than the video! But it really made me think...there aren’t a whole lot of educational videos out there that aren’t weirdly strange and very 80’s porno-ish. Like why can’t there or why can’t I find ones that are really geared to make me better!! Help a girl out!!!

Hopefully Daddy will be in a mood that will allow me to surprise please him!! I will wait and see....

Until tomorrow...