Firecracker Diaries - A combination of stories, random thoughts and an appreciation log of life with Daddy

Piercings

I have a couple of piercings now...and thinking about adding my nipples to the list.

I find pierced nipples very visually stimulating and sexy. I am not blessed with large breasts. I have breasts that of coarse I would like to enhance...make more voluptuous. But I like my breasts...I also like when my breasts are touched...either myself or Master. I can almost climax when Master plays with them...so piercing them just seems like something that would enhance this pleasure.

Here’s my hang up...I will have to sustain from touch or nipple play for at least a month!  I don’t know if it’s worth it...lol. But it would be in the long run....and have you seen all the sexy jewelry you can wear with nipple piercings?? Holy moly...super sexy!!

What are your thoughts?

Until tomorrow...

Full of ecstasy...

We went and celebrated the night at a Brazilian steakhouse...and completely stuffed our faces. We enjoyed the meats and the amazing salad bar and a pitcher of sangria! After the dessert was laid out...we literally felt like we were rolling out of there!

With such full bellies I was not expecting the amazing session Daddy gave me. Daddy celebrated my body last night....enjoying watching me pleasure myself and then pleasuring me more...

Each time Daddy takes me to a new level of pleasure...and I’m not sure if it’s because we were so full...but both of us had extreme orgasms. Like the kind of orgasm that your body is screaming for more and just takes over and continues to move and beg for more!

I could easily just have ongoing sessions with him...just stopping long enough to eat, shower, bathroom and start again. Only if I could figure out how to pay the bills but never stop having sessions!!

Until tomorrow....

Reminiscent...

Who would have thought that I would be in pure bliss a year later from entering in to a contract with my Master. Who would have thought that the awe of entering into a new relationship would be just as awe striking a year later!!

When I entered into my contract with my Master I was super green and had no idea what I was doing. I have made many mistakes along the way...but true to my Masters words he has guided me every step of the way. I feel I have learned much over the last year...and know I have more to learn...but the most important thing has been that someone can be true and trusted. That someone can love me like u deserve and that in true love there is deeper emotions than I ever dreamed...and those give deeper meaning to our physical connections.

I have learned so much about myself as well...and the confidence that my Daddy gives me will be with me forever.

I never dreamed I would be where I am today...I didn’t even know that this existed. It’s real...and I just keep thinking that I will wake up from this dream...and I do but he is right there with me to remind me that it’s all real.

Thank you Daddy...you have rocked my world...

Until tomorrow...

Deep penetration...

Last nights session was all about deep penetration.

We started with me giving Master as massage. He had a long day and hard work....so I wanted to give him a massage. I started with his back, shoulders and neck area. I used the massage oil liberally and ran my hands all over with steady pressure...then moved to his buttocks and legs. Again making sure that he was well oiled...steady pressure and penetration on those sore muscles.

I could help myself but get turned on by the sight of his body. Closer to the end I was focused on his buttocks...once he turned over ...I couldn’t help but to focus on his cock. And before I even realized what I was doing...I had his cock in my mouth before I had even asked permission.

It didn’t take long for him to wrap his fingers in my hair and start to moan with pleasure. He was having me take his cock deep in my mouth...and I could tell it was pleasing him as he groaned and became harder.

We continued for a little while and then he pulled me off and got behind me. Positioning me just right with my ass in the air...he was positioning himself behind me and I was waiting for him to enter me when instead he took me with his tongue...rewarding my clit! Then he had his hands and his tongue coaxing me to cum. I begged him to let me...and when he said yes I came hard!!

He continued and just when I’m about to have a second orgasm he enters me. Deep. Very deep. He is positioning himself in a way that is maximizing his depth. He pulls my head back and arches my back more...and he goes deeper. By this point I’m moaning so loud...I’m so wet I can feel it running down my legs...and he is so deep inside me.

The next orgasm is building and I can tell that this one is going to be a big one...my pussy must have been pulling on him because he asks me if I’m about to cum...I some how get out a sound...and he tells me he is about to cum with me...his cum pushes my orgasm into a feeling of massive pleasure...like my body had been starved for his food and finally had it. I swear it felt like I was milking him...

So much pleasure....and smell of sweet sex in the air...we slept like royalty...amazing....

Until tomorrow...

Long day....

I had one of those days that I just could not get Master off of my mind. I wanted to be with him...I wanted to just be in his arms and out of this world for a while.

I have 2 nights now that have been filled with bad dreams. The first night consisted of Master dying and me not able to do things for him after he was gone. His family and exes were shutting me out and I was on the sideline. I couldn’t get to him...the second was me chasing him and no matter what I did he wouldn’t recognize me or that I was there...and he didn’t look for me or care. Nightmares !!

It has kept my mind on him extra...

I know it’s just dreams...but it was dreams that lasted all night long and very vivid!!!

I just need to hold him and kiss him...and focus on the weekend and my surprises for him!!

Until tomorrow

Date Planning...

So I asked for permission to plan our date night this weekend!! I’m planning on taking him to dinner to a place he has never been!! I’m super excited!

I gave him some basic information like time...but that’s about it! I like that I’m gonna get to surprise him!! But he won’t make it easy...I’m sure he will try and get it out of me until we get there!

I’m planning on another surprise later that evening as well...to celebrate our 1 year of being in our Dom/Sub agreement! One year!! So I to celebrate my Sub birthday with him the proper way a sub would!!

I can’t wait!!

Until tomorrow...

Numbers....

I have been dealing with numbers all day. Mathematics is in my daily life...I think I should have been nicer to my teachers when I was in school because they were absolutely right when they said I would use it every day.

Some of the simple numbers are every changing in my world. But I’m liking my steady number of 2. The partnership number I have found with my Master. The knowing that everything we do we are doing for each other.

I know it sounds simple but when you have not ever had someone that you could depend on through everything...and I mean everything...the number 2 gives you great appreciation.

Master helped me with something last night that wasn’t really what he wanted to do...but he did and did it whole heartily...and was able to finally make it happen after I had been trying for 2 days! He was as committed as I was...and he didn’t have to be! It’s wonderful to have a true partner in all the parts of your life...

Until tomorrow...

Photos...

I read something today that was extremely impactful to me. It was a post on Facebook to men with n general about “take the photo” of your woman. It doesn’t matter what she looks like just take a picture...and take lots of them. It doesn’t matter if she says No or she doesn’t like her picture taken...just take the picture...because she is always taking pictures of you and everything else she loves...so how many pictures are there of her?

I scrolled through my phone and my Facebook pictures and found very limited pictures of me before this wonderful life I’m living. I can’t remember one single time anyone else in my prior relationships ever took a picture of me. Posted anything about me, etc.

Some of that was probably my fault as well...I didn’t feel beautiful, I didn’t feel sexy and I damn sure didn’t want any pictures of myself. But it’s very different from being told that you’re love or you’re beautiful...from being made to feel beautiful and loved.

My Master takes lots of pictures of me...he wants pictures of me daily. He makes me feel beautiful, sexy and loved. Even though he tells me these things regularly...it’s more that he make me feel this way. I also love to see pictures of us together...that includes me!! I never liked pictures of myself...and now I take multiple selfies daily for him. I don’t hold my breath when he posts pictures of me...I’m proud to be his and I’m proud that he likes to show us off.

I feel like I have been deprived of what it means to be treated like a woman...and now I know how all queens should be treated. My Daddy has given me the the gift of dominance and making me his queen. I am forever changed and grateful.

Take the picture...

Until tomorrow...

Smell of Brownies...

I don’t know if there is a better smell than the smell of brownies or cookies cooking in the oven. It’s the ultimate smell of home and comfort.

This is the smell in our home at this very moment. As Master lays in my lap and I run my fingers through his hair...is watching our show and smelling this heavenly smell. What else could be better?

I’m savoring this moment before our week begins. When we are busy with work and the other things that take up time from each other. I’m taking every single second of this and banking it in my memory bank to go back to when the week gets rough.

These simple moments are worth everything else we go through. The moments of wonderful smells and love in our world.

Until tomorrow....

Agitator...

I have this wonderful way to agitate people...specifically my Master. It feels like I do this in a regular basis lately. I never do this on purpose...it’s usually a lapse thinking about what is coming out of my mouth. Or a combination of words and facial expressions that don’t communicate well. Then trying to rectify the situation just gets worse.

My problem is I don’t know how to deal with conflict or frustration when it comes to anyone I love. My child or my mother this is true....but it is multiplied by 100 when if comes to Master. I think it comes down to Im afraid of losing any of them. Just writing this blog builds up a level of anxiety in me that is horrible. Just typing it out is horrible.

I don’t know how to talk and air my opposite opinion about things without a fear. It’s very strange for me because in my life outside of them...I have no issues. But especially with Master all I want to do is make him happy....and sometimes I feel I am a disappointment. I just want to be the person I know I can be all the time.

I know this is all my issue and I have to find an answer for myself on how to fix the way I feel and deal with things...but in the mean time I’m trying to figure out how to communicate with frustrating those that I don’t want to frustrate.

Until tomorrow...