This morning he had to go to work...like every morning since I have been here. I know that was part of the deal when I came here...that he still had to work every day. But today I felt selfish and wanted him to stay with me.
As soon as I came here I was notified of a death in the family...and even though this was something we had all been prepared for for several months now...I was saddened.
The death was actually a blessing and I am glad that the suffering for this person is over...but I will not be there with my family as they say goodbye. I’m actually not upset that I will be missing the funeral...I’m saddened that there are people in my family that think I need to be there. You see...I actually hate funerals...I don’t even want one for myself!!! But there are people that think you have to be there.
I have made my peace with how the situation played out...I hope that everyone else will as well. My place is here with him and his comforting arms that hold me tight each night.
Kiss your loved ones often...and hold them tight when you can...you never know when you can’t anymore...
Until tomorrow...
