During a discussion today I found out something I have been doing that I thought was a good thing...was actually kind of hurtful to him. Made him feel a certain way...a way that I never would have wanted him to feel...or to have pressed upon him.
We talked and I understood why...but I can’t help but feel bad for the way he felt. It made me sad...and when I get sad I get quite. I somehow start to feel like I just need to be quite and hope that I can make up for what I have done. This is turn makes him concerned because I’m now acting different.
How do you transition quickly from finding out you have been making the love of your life feel a certain way that he doesn’t want to feel...to just saying OK...I’m sorry and just move on. Wouldn’t it make you feel bad??? How do other people react when they find out they have made their love feel bad??
I’m not real sure how to deal with it without beating myself up...and making him more concerned with that?? I have to change what I have been doing...but not so much that it changes the way I show him my affection.
It’s all something I have to figure out...and ensure that it doesn’t change how I show him how much I care for him...but not in the wrong way.
I’m glad that we were able to talk and get it out in the open before it becomes a problem.
Until tomorrow...