Away Day 12
I made lots of progress today on the house! The stack of stuff that needs to go to storage is steady growing...but it’s looking better! He will have plenty to do once he gets home!
The next 8 days can’t go by fast enough. I really need him. So much has changed in my world over the past 12 days that I really need his strong shoulders to lean on. He is my rock and lately by the end of each day I feel I need him more. I just want him to hold me tight, pet my hair and let me listen to his heart beat.
It’s strange how when we are together I feel complete and my world is spinning like it should. When he goes away...I almost feel stuck. Stuck in a cold place waiting for his return to me. I am put on life support in a way...living off video chats, text messages and phone calls....waiting to be back in the land of the living.
It’s snowing out....and this is a first for me. It makes me sad that he is not here with me and I am experiencing all the firsts without him physically here. I know there will be more while he is with me...I just want it all sometimes.
Im just ready for him to be home....
Until tomorrow...