Firecracker Diaries - A combination of stories, random thoughts and an appreciation log of life with Daddy

Without Him Day 1

So the night was terrible...always the first night without him is miserable. Tossing and turning...hearing every single noise...getting up twice to see if someone is breaking in...stuffing the pillows around you to simulate his body...nothing works!!!

Then comes the day time...he has to work and so do I...so there is limited communication. It just feels empty...like my soul has left my body. Just numb...but also sad.

I know that the first days are the hardest and I keep myself busy...I know that I will have tears this weekend...I’m learning how to cope with this...but I don’t like it. I just want to have the means to be with him always... someday...

Until tomorrow...