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Firecracker Diaries - A combination of stories, random thoughts and an appreciation log of life with Daddy

I'm a owned and collared. The journey I have been on with Daddy is amazing...and only gets better! This is my daily entries of what is going on in my head and stories of all the things I’m learning with Daddy!
5 years ago. July 20, 2019 at 5:17 AM

Irrational fears...

 


Do you have those moments when something happens and it brings up a fear that is unfounded by the person or by the circumstances that your currently in?

 


I have moments with Daddy that fears arise due to something he says or an emotion he is having...and the fear that arises within me is a deep fear of disapproval or the fear of him leaving. Now he has never given me an kind of reason to believe that he would do this. He has never once given me any kind of hint that he would even have one foot out the door. This is all my head messing with me.

 


These fears frustrate and hurt my Daddy because he thinks I’m punishing him for others actions towards me. And that is not what I want...I never want to hurt him or make him frustrated. I struggle with my own demons on fears of rejection... And the thought of not being the absolute best at everything for him petrifies me.

 


I think some of it is a fear of losing the best thing that’s ever happened to me...due to my deep seeded belief that I’m not good enough. No matter how much I know and tell myself that I am worth it...during times of stress those thoughts still pop up...and I freeze.

 


Daddy talks me through it...but I know it frustrates him. I’m hoping that at some point this will stop...because it’s extremely frustrating for me too.

 


Until tomorrow...

TheAnt​(dom male) - This feeling is extremely common in the DDlg dynamics. We Daddys get over it fast so hopefully that's comforting to you. My Kitty wrestles with it should I even hint at being displeased and she has zero reason to ever think it, so again you are not alone.
5 years ago
Sensual City Girl​{ForeverHIS} - I have struggled with this in the past and it does get better over time. You do have to trust and believe in what you have and know that it is real. We aren’t perfect and will make mistakes, and that’s ok. What has helped me is reminding myself that by questioning from this place of doubt and insecurity, I know I will disappoint him and displease him because I am questioning Him. He has never given me any reasons to worry and quite contrary has assured me time and time again he’s not going anywhere, so I immediately will hold onto those truths and his words because the thought of him being displeased with me is much greater than the fear/insecurity. When in doubt, kick it out. Corny, I know.

Always remember that your Daddy does love you, if he didn’t want to be with you, he wouldn’t. Hugs!
5 years ago

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