5 years ago. October 19, 2019 at 11:12 AM
Attached...
I am now extremely aware of how attached I am to Daddy. Lying here in a single bed without him, eyes wide and a pillow wet with tears....I’m hyper aware of my attachment to him.
I feel like I can’t breathe. I know this is over dramatic so I keep this panic to myself. I will never go without him again...this is too much for me. I don’t like this feeling...I need Daddy.
I’ve didn’t realize how much I need him on a day to day basis. I need his touch. I need to feel his breath so I can sleep. I need his everything!!
I will make it through the next 36 hours....but I won’t do this to myself again. I need Daddy to be able to truly enjoy anything...
Until tomorrow