Communication...
I was privileged to start a new gig and part of this consists of evaluating communication and productivity of this set group. I have always been in the type of field where I evaluate and give feedback...but now I am extremely aware of communication breakdowns and am able to identify them immediately...this is mainly due to the work that Daddy has put into me over the last year.
A year ago what I thought was communication in a relationship was far from it. My version of communicating my needs and my emotions was on the opposite end of where they truly needed to be. I had learned how to keep my true feelings and emotions good or bad hidden from those that meant the most to me...and I didn’t even realize I did it. Daddy had to work hard to get me to learn what communication between two people really was.
He thought me things like not assuming that he knew exactly what was going on it my head would teach him more about me. That opening up about every single detail of my day to day thoughts was imperative for us to be connected. That becoming his sub and submitting myself to him meant EVERYTHING...not just the body. I had to open up all of my thoughts and feelings to him...this was the only way that he could truly own me.
This took time and patience for him. From my part it was hard to truly understand how to do this...when for so long everything I kept to myself without even realizing I did it...my mind was my safe place and my nightmare. Letting the good out is easy...the bad or ugly is not so easy. We all don’t want to be judged...much less by the one we love.
Through this process I’m extremely aware of poor communication because I was extremely poor at it for so long. I see how damaging it is to not only personal relationships but in the business world too. People have to learn to communicate with each other if you want something to change. I see so meaning meetings about communication and need for change...but all it is is people talking in circles and not saying a thing. I know...I did the same thing.
I don’t want that anymore. The communication that Daddy has taught me has opened me up to this magnificent relationship that I never could have dreamed existed. I know the result may not always be the result you want but do you really think living in a world of circles and merry go rounds is good too? You have to get off and be true to yourself...then you will see the right path.
I’m so glad Daddy showed me ours...
Until tomorrow...
