Disappointment
For submissives...all we want to do is please. Somedays the stars align just right to not allow that to happen. And when your someone like me....once one thing happens it creates a snowball effect that just builds throughout the day. This causes a mental breakdown from disappointing someone over and over again in the a short amount of time.
For me...it makes me want to crawl in a hole and hide. To remove myself from anything else that might cause disappointment to anyone that might be in my path of destruction.
My cruel mind takes a hold and tries to tear down my self-esteem....and it’s hard to back out of that place. I know it’s coming from myself....but it’s a dark and brutal rabbit hole that’s hard to turn around in.
Tomorrow will be better...and hopefully the mistakes I made today will be gone....never to return.
Until tomorrow...