Sometimes I wonder if my sex drive is to high? There could be several reasons this could be...but it does make me wonder if it’s a bad thing?
I’m in my 40’s and I have read that a lot of women are in their sexual prime in the age. I wonder if that’s what’s going on...but it could be a huge list of other things! Such as...what if I just never had great sexual experiences until now...what if it’s because I’ve never loved anyone like I do now...what if it’s because I have some sort of chemical imbalance...what if it’s because I’ve never had anyone love me like this and make me feel sexy like this so it’s my body responding? I could go on with all the what if scenarios...but it really does make me wonder.
I know that I feel closer to him when we are having sex...or simply making out. I also know that I feel more him when we are having sex. Maybe this is my brain telling my body how to deal with wanting his undivided attention for a few more minutes. It’s our time that is exclusively ours...we don’t have anything else but us and our connections through our bodies.
I know that’s extremely selfish...but is it? I have an amazing sex life with this man...is it so bad that I want him all the time? But I also don’t like rejection...it hurts even when you know it wasn’t meant to be hurtful. And maybe it’s hurtful because I’ve never felt as wanted as I have now...and your brain gets greedy and just wants more.
I want him to enjoy our sexy life as much as I do...I never want him to feel pressure from my constant desire to have sexy time. I want it to be natural and passionate...not planned or expected. Hopefully I can control myself enough that we never have to go down that road...
Thoughts of the day....lol
Until tomorrow....
