Today I was looking for places to stay for a little trip we are planning in December. I have been looking for homes to stay in...you know like Airbnb and HomeAway. It’s very interesting to me looking at other people’s homes.
I’m a very curious person...I notice the slightest of details on things and people. There are times that I purposely don’t try and pay attention to these things because I can get wrapped up in them. I will let my mind go into overdrive thinking about the why’s or how’s and coming up with so many conclusions or scenarios very active imagination.
There is no set story that I play out about things...it’s always different. I’ve always thought that I write the best novels inside my head...but no matter the story that I play out in my head...it always always always ends happy. Even when it starts out sad or even scary horror film type stuff...my endings always are good.
I think those of us that are submissive...we always do this for others. It’s part of our desire to please...we always no matter what will find a way to make it happy for someone. Sometimes at the detriment of ourselves.
I’ve been learning how to write that happy story in my head for myself and it’s such a beautiful thing. Learning to free yourself by submitting to someone is ironic but it’s very true for me.
My story in my head included lots of scenes with my Master in these homes I am clicking picture by picture through. Some included ravenous sex scenes...but mostly it included just being with him...watching a movie, cooking dinner, enjoying the scenery, cuddling by a fire or simply holding hands as we walked to a shop.
I love that my stories are getting sweeter in my head...especially when they come to me. I have my Master to think for this...he sets a great example of how to enjoy life and he continues to free my mind more and more.
Until tomorrow....
