4 more days!!! So excited!! And I will be busy over the next several days so the time should fly by!!!
I did what I said I was gonna do yesterday...I got up and got myself ready to go to the gym!! Then got a sweet surprise with our early morning video call!! I didn’t think we were going to be able to have one this morning since he had already told me he was going to be busy...but he made it work and was able to call me!!!
I’m not sure if he knows or not...but for me hearing his voice and seeing his face is like morning coffee...I need it. I hope he feels the same about me...but for me it makes my day go so much better when I can start it off right.
I know I have co-dependency issues when it comes to him. I feel empty without his communication. I wait for the calls, I wait for the texts...so much so that I never leave my phone and I usually have an earbud in so I can ensure I hear the alerts. If I call him and he doesn’t answer...I immediately worry. Mostly about his safety...I don’t have the “what the hell is he doing thoughts”...more like the “oh no...he didn’t answer...I hope everything is ok”....and the longer he takes to call back...the stronger the worry gets.
He’s not in the safest job in the world so it’s understandable to feel this way...but my mind will take over and thoughts of “how will I get to him if something happens?” “How will I know?””what will I do if something happens to him??” ...and before I know it, I’m a mess!!!
Is this a girl thing?? Do men ever think like this??
Anyway...I did a good solid 1 hour and 15 mins at the gym...make-up was on point and I did pretty good with my diet today considering the circumstances!! I’m proud of myself!!! I’m hoping that he will see the little changes to when he gets home!!
It’s all better when we are together or at least closer. Sorry for the rambling...just some thoughts of the day!!
Until tomorrow...
