I've been considering how our environments shape what we desire. And given that we live in a society where things like profit and economic power are more important than wisdom, truth and justice, it seems important to analyze how we are going about pursuing what we want.
What exactly are you considering when looking for a partner of any kind? Why do you reject what you do? If the goal is to find love or simply be happy; how do we truly reach those when the logic of our world transforms those very concepts into market friendly simulacrums? Are you chasing sexuality in place of love? Is the happiness you envision merely momentary satisfaction? What exactly does it mean to be fulfilled?
To subject oneself to such thorough analysis is challenging. Perhaps intimidating, even. Especially in a world that seems determined to distract and divide. Though, perhaps that difficulty is precisely the reason it is worth it.