I'm the type to compartmentalize my life. Everything has a place. When I discovered D/s I thought it was perfect for me because it wasn't about love. To me it was about a connection to someone on a deeper level. Something I never had but wanted desperately. It was about filling a void in my life.
I got the connection I wanted but in the process I let down my guard and my walls and let someone in. The funny thing is I didn't even realize that I let him in. Unfortunately he didn't feel the same way about me.
It took me a long time and someone making me really look at myself and my past feelings to realize that I had actually fallen in love. That's really hard for me to even admit. But he also made me see that I didn't do anything wrong. That there are a lot ways to love someone and loving someone is a really good thing.
