This time this post on my blog will not just be poetry but also a flowing means of truth and if you read this it will tell you more than you probably wanted to know. This is going to be part of me being able to give myself permission to grow, let go of bs, forgive myself for certain things and also accept and love myself and learn to be kind to myself. For many years I have hated so many parts of myself because others always treated me like shit and taught me that who and what I am is not ok, from a young age. It only got worse over time. So here we go. The honesty begins. I am what is known as highly sensitive or for my safety reasons that is what we will stick with. I am a bisexual which I have known from the age of about 13. I will date based not on age, race, or gender but based on the connection and the persons personality. I am a spiritual being. I am entangled with the metaphysics of earth. I work in what is known as a mans business or a mans world. I am pretty tall and have a lot of muscle and many find this intimidating. I have a very extensive sexual appetite. I am into kink. ect. We will not go into anymore detail there. But basically I have been let down, put down, burned, lied to, cheated on, and treated like shit or like I do not exist for one or multiple reasons listed above.
Dear Brittauneia,
Dear self,
It is oooo fucking kkkk to be you. Fuck what everyone else and says. You are a sensual being but then again you were not meant for everyone, only.....him whoever he might be. Bisexual is fine. Just remember who you are. Follow both your heart and keep your code of ethics. If it does not feel right to you then do not do it. Be kind to yourself, you are worth it. You are beautiful inside and out. You are a strong and caring individual and you will eventually find him. The one that can accept you and help mold you into who and what you are absolutely capable of being. Just hold on. I know that it hurts and you want to break down, but babygirl . He is out there somewhere and until then all you have to do is keep your head up. Walk with one foot in front of the other and improve you in every way and any way that you know how. Do not let anyone tell you differently. You will be loved and accepted you just have to be patient that is all.
Self pep talk over for now. Thank you for listening or reading in this case. Stay tuned for more soon. lol
