So as the new year roll is in. And today being number ONE. I thought it was a good time to go e over the things I’ve learned from the years past. This one comes without a number.
I learned yes I can do it. Yes I can do it by myself. I am strong and that I am Capable of many things. I am not an expert at any one just thing. I’m just ok at a lot of them. I am not that person that is going to win first place. But I am that person that is going to enjoy just trying because I’m not a quitter and I have a great personality. BUT yup it’s my blog you knew a BUT was coming.
but I have learned a very important thing. The reason I always try and do things on my own is because well I don’t like beholding to others. I don’t like owing that favor. I DON’T LIKE ASKING. Because I also feel that it means I couldn’t or they may think I didn’t try hard enough. Or they will judge me that I’m lazy or think I’m stupid. But here’s the reality I’m not the smartest person you will ever meet. But I’m smart enough to ask question. If I do something for someone do I feel they owe me? No I don’t and it’s ok to ask for help.
you may ask why would I think these thoughts why would I be scared of that. I don’t know why. But I do know I don’t think these things about others so why should I think they think bad.
I am woman I have been looking for a new car since last September. I have been having to rent a car from a coworker since then. I have just now been able to get out of the lemon that I bought. And I have finally broken down and asked for some help. And I now have eyes out in a few stats and see this challenge in my life coming to an end.
the next thing I learned is it’s ok not to settle it’s ok if you have to wait to get what you want. A lot people tell you oh just get this it’s the same thing. It’s not my friends it’s ok not to settle as long as your willing to work for it and wait for it.
life goes by really really fast when you have that one birthday with the numbers of 50 not joking here at all folks. I go and do day to day and then think wait I missed that last month did I even pay my bills?
I don’t have to work 24/7 I have learned I worked because I got bored and lonely so I worked to get out of the house. I’m an introvert I like staying home but I also like going out but just by myself. And we’ll that’s what I did. So I am going to find things to do and I can work my second job if I have to. Or I just want that thing that I’m not willing to settle on.
I only have six lives left never really thought about the nine lives before but I really do only have six left. And that’s not many left maybe that’s why I decided to stay up till midnight last night had a drink even. I am praying to break Cinderellas curse. 🤣🤣 yup 😊 I’m on a new road in life.
so to all my miss independent’s it’s ok not to
do it yourself. ☺️