Yesterday marked one year since I sat down across from my Sir for the very first time. Our long letters preceding our meeting about life and love and kink and dreams had already shown me the man beneath the exterior. We sent emails back and forth day and night asking each other endless questions, sharing stories of childhood, past relationships, and our aspirations. We ended each letter with a quote from a book, movie, or song. By the time we were able to meet in person, I already knew that he was a man I could kneel before and walk beside, a man I could love, a man I could learn from, a man I could grow old with. And luckily for me, he felt the same way.
Sir to kitten 1/27/19 11:20 PM
I want nothing more than to take that heart from you, hold it close and lend you my breath for the moments you forget to breathe. I am in a bad way, in deep, beyond hope, headed like a freight train to something incredible.
kitten to Sir 1/27/19 11:35 AM
I’m typing with the most reluctant of fingers because you make me want to say things. BIG things. Scary things. I am so madly insanely infatuated, besotted, enamored with you. I already can’t wait to wake up in the morning just so I can talk to you again.
kitten to Sir 1/29/19 9:23 AM
Just to be clear, I'm not typically this star-struck moony-eyed girl for the men who give her attention. In fact, I'm quite reserved and a bit untrusting. I may feel every emotion, but I rarely show it. I keep walls so highly erected around my heart that very few ever get through. But you Sir, are a bulldozer. I'm clinging desperately to these last few remaining bricks, lest I crumble under the weight of your affections.
Sir to kitten 1/29/19 9:42 AM
My dearest Girl, I know exactly how you feel. I have had a few try, unsuccessfully, to get close to me. I don’t understand how you moved right through my defenses but you made it look effortless. I have never been taken so quickly, or felt so strongly about a woman I don’t think. It’s feels silly to write knowing that there’s a possibility something just doesn’t click on Sunday but it’s true. I don’t know how you did it but I am open and exposed in a way I haven’t been in as long as I can remember.
On February 2nd he flew to Orlando, the closest airport to me, where he had rented a hotel suite for the weekend. I had to work that night and was distracted the entire time knowing that Sir was only an hour drive away. I spent the whole night staring at the clock and willing time to pass so I could get in bed and wake up and start driving to him. I thought many times about asking him to meet me in the midnight hours so I didn’t have to wait any longer, but somehow I managed to make it to daybreak.
Sir to kitten 2/2/19 8:09 PM
I found myself today in Orlando. It feels like it’s been a long time coming and now that it’s 14 hours away my heart is kicking back into 6th gear. I have wandered around a bit today and have pictured you with me almost everywhere I went. I haven’t even met you yet and I see you everywhere I look.
I was a nervous wreck the entire drive to Orlando. We talked on and off the entire drive and discussed a meeting place. I began to worry, “What if there’s no sexual chemistry? What if he doesn’t find me attractive? What if…”
We agreed to meet at the Aquarium, the place he had chosen for our date. When I arrived, I called to find out where he was. I told him I was standing in front of the large ferris wheel and he told me to stay put and he’d come to me. A minute felt like an hour when I finally saw him approaching. I thought my heart might explode in chest.
And then he did the best thing he could have possibly done. He walked right up to me, put one hand on the side of my face and one hand around my back and he kissed me. All the jitters and fears dissipated in that one simple act. He pulled back just slightly to smirk and whisper, “hi”, and I was already leaning in for more.
We spent the entire day walking and talking. We strolled through the aquarium, we got lunch, we sat by the pool of his hotel. It was perfect. He was perfect.
We’d originally only planned to see each other that day, but by the time I left I was already asking if I could return the next day since he didn’t have to fly out until the evening time. He didn’t take much convincing.
kitten to Sir 2/3/19 9:56 PM
Today was everything I hoped it would be and more. You are my perfect counterpoint. My soul knows yours and I can’t deny the way I fit perfectly in your arms. We were made for each other.
What I didn’t except was to look over at you on day one and be hit with the feeling of “this is it; the start of forever.” I also didn’t expect I’d want to climb all over you and beg you to take me in a parking lot but *shrug*.
I can’t thank you enough for everything. You flew here, you took me to the aquarium, treated me to lunch, and conducted yourself like the perfect Prince Charming the entire day. I am flattered and grateful and feeling pretty friggin lucky.
Sir to kitten 2/4/19 5:59 AM
I have never before been so sad about the idea of leaving somewhere. I walked back to my hotel last night and my phone reminded me that my flight leaves tomorrow, and my heart dropped. I knew yesterday, sitting there with you, that my life had changed.
You don’t have to thank me for anything. Coming here was the best decision I’ve ever made. The type of day that makes you grateful for every decision that you’ve made in your life that has led you there. I am absolutely crazy about you miss. There’s no saving me and I wouldn’t want to be rescued. There’s only so many words I can find to tell you how strongly I feel about you but simply you are mine. I will cherish you, and just never let you go.
When I returned the next day I met him at his suite. He opened the door to let me in and we sat down on the couch and talked for a bit. It didn’t take long for talking to turn into kissing and kissing to turn into other things. It was a very fun day. I received my first rule, “don’t cum without asking permission”.
Saying goodbye was the hard part. And it has been every time since. But what a beautiful perfect exciting life-changing weekend it was.
Sir to kitten 2/4/19 4:37 PM
In what has turned out to be the best decision I have ever made I flew to Orlando to meet the perfect woman. It went even better than I could have possibly imagined.
She stole my heart so rapidly that I still don’t really know what happened. I’ve never been this type of guy. In ways on this trip I was restrained, but in almost none of the ways that matter. I gave away the most important part of me. Something that I’ve protected for years. I went all in and I was almost convinced I’d not find someone I wanted to do that for again.
kitten to Sir 2/4/19 4:48 PM
When I laid in your arms today, I felt more safe and content and also more terrified than I'd felt in a long long time. It's a feeling of rightness and perfection... but my survival instincts also kick in and my heart says "Girl, you have to keep at least a little tiny piece for safe keeping so you can survive if the rest gets shattered." But I didn't do that. I ignored that voice and gave you every tiny sliver. It's all yours. And I'm going to do my best to love you without fear or reservation. You deserve everything, and I'm going to be that for you, just you wait and see.
Oh what a crazy year it has been. My adoration of him has only magnified since that day and I have allowed myself to be completely consumed by him. He loves me, protects me, leads me, and gives me room to grow and flourish. He pushes my boundaries, and tests my limits, and makes me see myself in new ways. He’s my joy and my catharsis. He is my Sir.
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