I'm in love with a narcissist. I don't know what my obsession with narcissists are. Apparently that's just what my type is. Not sure if it because I like the drama of constantly being built up just to be soul crushed later or if it's simply because I enjoy being hurt.
They don't want to marry you, they don't want to date you. Yet they don't want you to see other people. They just want to keep you on the back burner so they can have you as an option for when they are bored and desperate for attention. They are self absorbed and need to feel like they are the gods pure human form and that everyone should bow down and praise them. They constantly need to play the hero. Yet they want all the sympathy the world has. They also blame you for everything. Everything is your fault. They have unrealistic expectations of you. It's always their way or the highway. They don't have the time or patience to care for anyone but themselves. They never take your feelings into consideration. They never put you first. they think they are the best. Why would I be attracted to that.
What is wrong for me to be in love with a narcissist. My heart pines for someone I cannot have. Years of this back and forth. Oh you can't date me but you wanna use me for sex. Oh you need to cheat on your girlfriend with me but yet you won't date me. Oh you got married and yet you still want me as a side option.
