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Why do i always try to hide in the shadows when all i want to do is to be seen? The shadows is where my home is and then why do i always try to find that one woman that will show me the light or that this world is a good. That this world can be good to me. I try to show that i have a heart that i can care for someone. But then i start to listen to the darkness that keeps calling me back to the shadows. I dont stay in the shadows to spy on people that would be hard to do when its to dark to see where anyone is at. I stay in the shadows because it is safe and i cant get hurt like i have so many times. The shadows has never hurt me it has never done me wrong. The shadows remind me of what i truly am. In the shadows i dont have to pretend that i have a heart or that i care for others. I may not be a people person but everytime i come out of the shadows to try to find love and to show that i do have a heart. All i find is pain and mercy. So why come out of the shadows why not just stay where i am safe. Stay where no one can ever get to me. Stay where there is no love. Where there is no joy or happiness. Stay where i dont have to feel anything. At all so why come out of the darkness at all. When there is no one that wants to or willing to show a demon that. He is not really a demon at all. He is someone that is only half demon and half angel. Sometimes its good for him to let the angel side to come out. And show his face or maybe the angel has to die so that part of me. Can ever bring me happiness or joy ever again because where there is that crap there is hurt so.