Lone Wolf Rumblings

I have enjoyed BDSM for many years but had to separate fantasy from reality and wonder if it will happen. Sometimes I wish I was wealthy and God had not made me who I am but I cannot do nothing about that. There are things I like about me but I do like to cross dress and would like to feminized  to the point I could switch back and forth in bondage/BDSM situations with a couple or be the one dominating. It was  getting weight loss surgery. I did it initially to please others but that was the wrong motive as I will never please a everyone. Will I ever be a bodybuilder? Probably not but do desire better health which is why I would want a couple or individual that was into fitness help me train to  get in the best shape possible.. Some of the fantasias I had are not workable in real life as I have to work too but one of my strengths is I can balance a lot of things as I do a lot of volunteer work here in Bozeman and exercise plus work. One simple fantasy I have is to be chair tied gagged with tape blindfolded and ankles legs and wrists tied behind in a skirt and  be gagged, bound and blindfolded naked at night after a shower. I know I will never be a movie star but strive to improve in body and mind everyday